Every since college, my life has spiraled down hill. I'm a teacher with a Masters degree and I'm always broke as hell. My wife won't listen. I married her because she got pregnant. I want to do the right thing since she already had two children out of wedlock with two different men. She had her tubes tied when she had my child despite my wishes. Now I can never have another child, but I call hers my own. That was ten years ago, but problem like that don't go away. I'm a former athelte who will never have a son. She quit her job to go back to school. She was obviously focused on other things while she was in college. Now the water is cut off, the gas is off. She hasn't worked in a year, but when I mention it I'm a jerk. Everyone wonders where my money goes like I'm a damn crack head or something. I spent most of my life loyal to Christ and GOD. I was a deacon, sunday school superintendent. Its all the same. My life sucks. I used to be pretty good looking, but now I'm bald and funny-looking. I've sacrificed the best of me for a woman who is out for herself, and won't even help me as I take care of her and her kids. I used to smoke weed daily just to get by, and I can't even afford that anymore, so I tolerate life as is. No help in site. You see, my life really sucks. Worst ... if I leave her., I will have to pay the child support that she doesn't even make the real dads pay. The sex sucks because she basically lies on her side. Lately, I've had the desire to wear women's clothing. I'm all fucked up. I think she has bitched me out. My mom passed a few years ago. My dad acts like he never had kids no that she's gone. I have no one to borrow a dollar for if I need it. If I ask a minister, everything that is happening is my fault because I'm the man. I can't go on like this. I'm at my lowest today. Life sucks big time!