LIFE SUCKS

Feel like a looser

I used to think that I would have things and be somebody and that I would get respect from people because I give them respect. I have spent most of my life being put down and laughed at and why all of this I don't know. I do know that I have ADHD and that I have a very hard time with focusing on anything for long. I get frustrated with things cause I lose interest in them. I became a carpenter and a plumber cause I did not know what else to do. I guess that I just fell into it and never left. I have allot of great ideas, but do not know where or how to start to get them off of the ground. I have a high IQ but still cannot seem to stop my brain long enough to figure out the common sense things like where to start to get a business going. Even hear I am just rambling. I am 48 and my whole life people have put me down so that they can feel better. tell me that I am stupid and tell me that the ideas that I come up with are dumb and will not work. I have not held as job for more than a year in my whole life. I can do better than this I have some very good ideas, but I need help getting them off of the ground. Man people always have nothing but negative things to say when I tell them about my ideas. It is as if they think that if my idea works then they will look bad or something....who knows. I am now about to be homeless with no money and no car no job and when I asked my mother for a little help she said that I should go to a homeless shelter and eat at a soup kitchen. Now mind you that I have asked my mother for very little help and that she has plenty of money. I do not know what to do from hear I feel very very lost and indeed.