I feel like a maid in my home. We used to have a housekeeper that we paid $1000 / month for. Since we moved to another city, and I cant find a job I get to clean up after my boyfriend and his 140 lb bulldog that does nothing but drool and shed all over the house. The floors have to be done at least every other day or were swimming in drool and dog hair. It's disgusting. Plus, Im with a guy who refuses to commit to me after 5 years and doesnt want to have a family with me becuase he says he's too old and doesn't want to lose his freedom. So I am essentially a free maid (slave) to him and his dog while he gets the milk and cow for free. His job consists of meeting new, fun peopole and going out to lunch daily and having beers...playing rock band and hanging out w/ friends, while Im stuck at home hating my life..feeling like Im wasting the best years of my life. We started dating when I was 25, now Im 30. Im getting older and I feel stuck becuase I have no job in this new town..no way to get out of the house..lame. As I type this I can hear the dog drooling and shedding all over the floor I just spent 2 hours cleaning, which will look like crap in about a couple of hours. Oh, and since Im an indentured servant, my bills arent getting paid so Im getting deeper and deeper into debt. But thats not his problem. Thats mine. And that's one of the reasons why he doesnt want to get married, b/c things like that would become his responsible too. So why is the dog and all the housework mine? He hasn't lifted his finger one day for this house... I made some pretty bad decisions allowing myself to get stuck like this. I used to make a lot of money and had full benefits...I quit that job for this. Oh wait theres more. I suffered my second miscarriage this week, leaving me to feel even more worthless than I already do. But my bf sure is happy about it, Im sure. (Not wanting to lose his freedom and all.) WTF am i doing w/ my life? | |
MEOW~The cleaing you did was done for your own standard of cleaningness, was it? His standard may be with his bulldog.
No way of getting out of the house, miscarriage started with unwanted pregency, quited job for an older man, and came to that newtown for him. O.UR.G! No... you did it your-self. Apply for a job online, contact your former employer, move back in with parents, borrow some money and leave him without a goodbye to prevent retilation.
meowmeow for now~
Do NOT do that to yourself. Why do you stay with him? This should be a LESSON to all grls. NEVER quit a job or give up something for A MAN! It is NEVER worth it. You do NOT have to stay with him. Thankfully we live in a country where women have lots of rights. You do NOT live in Saudi Arabia. You can leave and start over. Obviously, this boy is an asshole. He is definitely NOT a man and don't think you can be the "one" to change him. WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR? LEAVE HIM. BEFORE U HAVE A CHILD AND GET STUCK. GOOD LUCK.
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