LIFE SUCKS

FUGGIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't know where to even start. Back in 2007 I signed into the Army. I was so psyched because at the tender ripe age of 34 I signed into the Infantry. I worked my ass off to better my life and those around me. May 24th 2007 I was shipped to Ft. Benning. I was nearly the oldest fucker there, but better than most. By week four of training I was on point. My shit was always perfect. I was in great shape and was already for anything they had to destroy me with.
Back home I had a little one that was born the day I started training. I came home for con leave due to an injury I sustained. They gave me 30 days leave time. I went home and found my girlfriend so to speak was not faithful at all. Next I only got to see my daughter for a few minutes, which by the way I was still unsure if she was even mine. So distraught I did something that will haunt me for the rest of my life. I must add that I come from a very well to do family, all loaded as fuck. My father and his father were Combat Engineers, Rangers, and decorated to the mother fucking tip top. My father was in fact in the top combat engineering unit in the entire Vietnam war. GODDAMN RAMBO!!
He was decorated five times. He now owns a civil engineering/golf course design/motherfucking everything else. His business from 76 to now has emassed more than 10 Billion dollars.
So back to the thing I did, I smoked a shitload of pot in the weeks I was home for leave. I was in a bad position. I had Airborne and Ranger in my contract. When I got back to base, I was tested immediately. Thanks to an asshole named Private Gomes. He had shit mailed to him and he was caught in the tree line smoking pot by the mps. DICK!! I was then basically arrested and court martailed. My life was over! SO I THOUGHT! I paid $2000 in fines, did 42/45 days extra duty, and was on my way to be out processed. Then my Senior Drill Sgt. came to me and said get your shit, your starting over. I was so frigging happy. My next cycle I was great! I shot the live 203 round and was the best at it. I was again one of the oldest guys, but I was so good! Then it all came crumbling down fast! Senoir Drill SGT FUCK HEAD (ZIMMER) took a shit in my life. He was the ONLY REASON I am so fucked today! He read my files and told me I was never going anywhere while he was around. Three mutha fucking days from graduation I was booted from the service for get this, an Integrity violation. He accused me of cheating on a run that was not, I repeat not required! I then had to wait an additional three weeks just to be sent to another place to be out processed. At this site, I was constantly fucked with. I beat the shit out of any private that looked at me wrong. But, I never got in trouble. In fact the lead drill asked me to talk to someone so I could stay. I not only told him no, BUT FUCK NO!!!!! FUCK THE ARMY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So many privates did not want to be there, but they eventually graduated and a good bit of them died! WAY TO GO UNCLE SAM!!! I left FT. SHITHOLE on April 1, 2008. I was ready to go home to a heap of shit from my family. My father has said maybe two words to me since then. FUCK HIM!!!!!!! He has no idea what really happened and he could care less. He's a business man, and the bottom line is all he cares about. My mother has become a loon so to speak. Every female in my life since then has hated me for her actions. So I disowned my family. I love my sisters. Always will!
So I came home. First I had to get a paternity test. She was mine. Case closed. Tried to get a job, and it only took 5 months. A shitty job at that. Casino work sucks! I was a star in my department though, with many awards, and I was in fact selected from nearly 20 casinos to be in a recruiting video. I signed on for it because I thought maybe they would send me and my girlfriend to Vegas. Yeah right! CHEAP AS MUTHAFUCKAS!! They netted 78 million last year.
So my girlfriend worked there as well. She was also the star of her department. She made LOOT! We had a great life! She was injured previously in a relationship with an ex from years ago. This injury forced her to have 3 back operations in 6 weeks time. The nuerosurgeon sucked!!!!! He fucked her up for life. Then her son wanted to move because he was being picked on. Well if you have huge earing hoops, and dress all funny what do you expect! So she said they were leaving and wanted me to go with them. At first I thought that's crazy. But, I was never going to advance in this company! Too much shit wrapped up in it! So we went. By the way, never use UHAUL! They suck! Over priced and pieces of shit! We found a place in Frankfort MI. Just outside of Honor MI where she is from. The plan was for me to help them move, come back for a few months, and then move there with them. My shitty boss who always praised me, dropped the ball and I was fired for not reporting. He said he had me covered, not so much!!!! We had to make the best of it. I tried to get a job, but unemployment was better for me since all jobs in casinos werent hiring me cause I wasn't muthafucking TONOT! Catch my drift! We also had her sisters kid dropped in our laps. We love her dearly, the kid that is! We had her for a year in our legal guardianship. Our land lord also committed suicide. She was so awesome. Her husband was too, until this untimely death.
The lil girl three at the time, was a handful, but we managed to get the cps workers to adore us with her in our custody. When I could not find work something had to give. By the way, we received not assistance for her. NONE! All on our dime. My fiance was receiving full disability. It ait shit either! We managed though, until her sister, the childs mother wanted her back. I was devistated. We went to court, tried to fight it. Her mother by the way also had court in which she was looking at 14 years for crimes she committed. The cunt was released and let go. She had probation, but it's a fucking joke in Frankfort! She tested dirty many times, and nothing came of it. NOTHING! The hearing we had for the little girl, was also a joke. The judge did not want to make a decision as to whether the girl would stay with us. She sent us to mediation. Another fucking joke! We paid for it, and lost. Thanks JUDGE! GROW SOME FUCKING NUTS AND DO YOUR JOB! SO as quickly as she came to us she was gone. We then left MI, and moved back to our last location. I have been trying to get a job for over a year. The little girl is now with her grandmother, and she also receives nothing! No govt assistance, no child support, and she has the mothers other child. In fact none of her kids live with her. She continues to do wrong, and never gets in trouble. She must be blowing someone. She has been arrested numerous times since then, and again the judge does nothing.
When we talk to the child, she is a mess. No respect, says she wishes her mother would kill them. FUCK ME! What did we do to deserve this life!
Then we moved to a shit heap of a home. We have had to deal with mice, roaches, theft, very flambouyant neighbors, and a pitbull being dropped on us cause she was being left to die. The town we live in will euthanize all pitts when captured and not recovered by the owner. The dog has been so much fun, but she has destroyed so many things. Thousands of dollars of shit.
I still can not find work, her son wants to move again, and I am at my wits end. To top it off I was looking on the internet the other night for information or pics of my daughter, since I have no contact with her mother, and found out her grandfather was arrested last year for a sex offense. It stated he was convicted of indecent liberties on a child while in his custody. So you can imagine how I must feel. Helpless! I can't even see her til I pay my back support. I can't even get a job to pay this. WTF!
My fiance her son and I are always at each others throats because the economy is so bad. I have three years of college, but I can't go back to school because I can't afford it. Unemployent has a division in which once you accomplish all 5 million parts, you might be able to go to school. Where did it all go wrong! I would say when my asshole dad jumped on my asshole mother! Hence the TITLE FUGGGGGGGGGITTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!
I wish I had a gun! Oh that's right I can't afford one, but if I could, I would'nt need it! OR WOULD I! LOL