I'm 17 and male. I never really had a happy childhood. I never felt part of my family and thought there was something wrong with me. I decided to change who I was and regret it so much. I never felt loved and therefore did not who how to love for many years. My mother is thick and nothing is ever good enough for her. I never felt warmth from her and was isolated. I have 3 brothers, I'm the second oldest. I hate my older brother. He always gets wat he wants. My dad is always working and I saw him 2 or 3 times a day for 20 mins during my childhood. I never felt wanted as a child and was completely different to my whole family. Nobody understood. I was bullied by my older brother as a child. Whenever I got something he wanted it or was given something better then it. I used to get by by playing playstation but then my mam broke it. I know this is not the reason for my poor childhood but it was a distraction from reality and it kept me going. I always felt as if I wasn't good enough. I changed who I was just to be accepted and I regret it so much now. If anyone out there feels as if their not good enough or don't fit in your not alone. Don't ever make the mistake I did and change who you are because you can't beat the original. Be who you are even if it gets you bullied or teased. You only have one life so live it to the fullest and never let anyone tell you that your not good enough. If only someone told me this when I was younger things would be so much better for me. Things are still the same but at least I have sense now and am being myself. | |
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