tried suicide 3 times, or more. I'm 50. Last attempt, survived and half retarded due to living without a life. Tried the god thing, made things worse. Family doesnt know how to deal, cant explain or confess cauz now....I studder.i got to bed @ nite and say "goodbye cruel world, I thank no one." After fighting sleep, I awake to "here I am God, now what?" and brush my aching teeth and am so depressed...I dont eat. Nothing looks good and I have no cravings. Channel surf for hours. Never satisfied. I have what a million people want or would rather be and again, tis I thats never satisfied. I never hear a peep outta god and one night left pencil and paper for him. Still nothing. Busted my brain so I cant decide on anything or even how to finish what i started.Selfish of me not 2 mention my DNA child or my divorced kid and then I do have a son.None of us speak, especially now. Poor Me. | |
The more you embrace that feeling in your heart, the bigger it will become and the more you will be able to feel it's unconditional true love for you and in this silent understanding you will find peace.
You loved a woman enough to give her a child, but you are missing out on the joys of being a parent. Like God the amount of love a child has for their parents is rejuvenating. A child is one of the few people who will truly respect and look up to you if you put the effort in. Poor Him for not having a hero for a father.
1 ) you dont believe in god anymore
umm who fucking does ? I don't , its just all a fairy tale.
2) Channel surf for hours. Never satisfied.
yeah cause television fucking sucks .
Call me an asshole but i am fucking laughing, this post is total bullshit, " I dont eat. Nothing looks good and I have no cravings " eating is so mainstream , fuck that shit.
wdf, jesus , sack up asshole.
Your sexual relationships are fairytales, God is real.
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