LIFE SUCKS

Is it me? or bad luck?

So I'm a 21yr old RSA lady. My problem is men. My first real boyfriend I met when I was 13/14. We dated for 2.5 years and then I found out he lied to me about EVERYTHING. His name, age (he told me he was 17, he was 21), parents,job. everything. I was ruined. Young and trusted someone with my all and then that. Then at 16 I met another guy (he is my dads girlfriends brother and age 30). We landed up dating for 4 years and I lived with him. He cheated on me numerous timws. Eventually I got the strength to end it. Then I met this guy who is my best friends brother.25yrs old and Genuinely amazing. But he messed up his life, leaving school and partying and now he can't get a job. He moved to stay with me in johannesburg from cape town. It lasted 2 months and he wanted to go back. He went back and ever since has harrassed me with phonecalls crying saying he made a mistake. But even though I love him I am no longer in love with him. He gave up on us so easily so how can I trust him. Last year september I met a guy. Completely not my usual type but I learned to like him. As I got to know him I got to know his secrets... Including his promiscuous past and his love for porn, shemale porn. I am 200% against any porn but looked over it... I can't trust him because of past relationships... And since my ex is still bothering me its straining on our new relationship (we been together a week) well were... Out of the blue yesterday he broke up with me, completely ignored me at gym and refuses to see me and I have no idea why... I'm a average girl, never cheated on a guy, always give my all and try find the best in everyone... But when it comes to love... I'm not sure I ever have truely been loved and I don't know why things never work for me... On top of it all... I'm originally from cape town, live in jjohannesburg and I cannot make friends here... So I am completely alone, depressed and desperate for attention...