I am 16, my mum is crazy she gets so angry that she just scrunchs up her face and threatens to kill me. I just stay in my room as much as possible. We just had an argument and the whole time she's yelling at me I just think if there was a fucking gun I would pull the trigger and shoot myself in the face. I think she has a problem though. She's very alone because she's done everything on her own her whole life so she can't let people in and she's a single parent. Dad lives away and has for ages. I hate my two sisters one is a emotional reak and the others a slut. I can't wait to turn 18 and move away as quick as possible. I used to be okay with the arguing but late last year and this year I have got really wierd and now it just makes me want to kill myself I lay here thinking about it.. And we seem fine to everyone else in the entire world and we useally are fine but, mums slowly killing me I think.. I look forward to being old enough to grow up move out run away from everything and everyone and never get in contact again. It's sad but it's true I will never talk to this grumpy bitch again she has made the first half of my life a fucking hell. We still do good things like happy family's but I just can't handle these arguments like the rest of my family. I'm a normal 16 year old boy into music and stuff.. Got really close friends and a girl friend. But no one knows this side of the story. I think I'm depressed to be honest with you, kids at school cut the selfs and shit but I'm not like that? I just want to run away and do drugs and forget about the first 18 years of my life. Leave the country start over. I'm sure lots of kids are depressed and do nothing about it right? And I'm really like funny and have heaps of friends at school and me and my mum hug goodbye and we talk laugh all of that. But when we fight it just hurts me. I can remember fights from year ago she went crazy and jumped over the couch to hit my sister and I pushed her so she wouldn't then she hit me down and my sister yelled at me and said don't like it was a normal thing to get hit by this fucked up lady. It was so odd for me I just went to my room. I broke my finger Aswell that night.. so now it's 10 in the morning and now that we have had this fight I will go out there and make some breakfast like normal and we will just begin a normal day but deep down I hate her and think she is crazy. If any of my sisters turn out to be a mother like my mum I will personally go around there and shoot both of them in the head. I hate her I hate everything about my life. Please can these next few years go quickly so I can run away from it all..... Sorry how badly this is written | |
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