I hate my sensitive, short, ugly, hideous,ridiculous, lonely self. I'm such a failure at everything in life. Everything that I cared and loved all turned on me. I'm alone in this horrid planet. I watched a movie and experienced everything that reminded me of my hatred for men. My dad is emotionally abusive, boys bullied me b/c I'm ugly, and some of the stuck up girls pick on me b/c I'm low maintenance and don't have fashion sense. I'm in the pit of my depression, b/c no one can help me at all. I'm in college now, and I can't get any help b/c of my mother who's given up on me. Everyday I come home crying til midnight, and I have tons and tons of work (not exaggerating either), and yet I get yelled at for the dumbest things around the house.I'm trying to get a job, but no one wants to hire me. I feel like God has left me, and there is practically no hope for me. The majority boys in my life ruined me and turned me into the wreck I am today. The only comfort I can get is in sleep, but I barely get some of that b/c of the work I have to do. I have almost next to zero friends in my life left. I'm tired of feeling like a worthless piece of trash on this wretched planet. There is no help for my depression and anxiety attacks, I constantly feel like I'm going to throw up, half of my family hates me, I'm at a failure as everything in this world, and my life is some sick joke. | |
Your not worthless, you're family does love you, your not a failure. Quiters are failures, you need to keep going, you cant see the future, things can change very quickly. God hasn't left you, one reason could be that he may be bringing hardship in your life so that you turn to him. Jesus wants you to trust in him. "Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make straight your paths.
Proverbs 3:5-6
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls". Matthew 11:29. Take him at his word.
Take care and regards.
God has left you? No god cares not if you die or kill your-self, so don't rely on what you can't see and do stop pray to something fictional that has no real power. How can I be so sure? If you jumped down from the top of a building, you are not going to be rescued by some freaky miracle, and you will die with a broken skull. Drop that god, drop that disappointment.
Family? If you family yells at you over the dumbest of thing that means they are stupid and they care about you. The family who hate their children kick them out. Somehow I think they care about you with frustration that they have for everything else. Of course is always good to leave your parents for a while if you can. Just to know what you really like-life with parents or life without.
Just be patient in the main time, complete that piece of paper which they give you at the end of your current education. Find someone short and ugly to date may be your solution apart from lesbianism.
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