LIFE SUCKS

Gonna sound like a pity party

So I'm not sure where to start. Bad things happen to me. Let's start with right now. I'm getting evicted. I'm not sure where I'm going to live. I don't make enough money. I am pretty girl though. I do get treated better than if I was a man in this situation. I feel like I don't want to just pity myself I just want to tell someone my story. And no have to put it on facebook. I have "friends". They're nice enough when they want what you have. they were all around me this summer, they smoked my weed and drank my beer and took off when I needed people. That bothers me enough to mention but not to bad. I think I knew all along they were using me. I've got a real problem here though. The eviction isn't that bad. I'll manage. But it's my relationship with my boyfriend. It's been not so great for a while. We've been together for 5 years and I do love him. We butt heads bad though. We fight and bicker constantly. I didnt have a job for a long time and made little to no money and it seemed like that used to be the focus of our fights. He's screamed and yelled bloody murder, as have I. But he hits me. Not without provocation sometimes, Sometimes he's just mad. He doesn't beat me, it's more of a punch in the head kind of thing. He'll hit me a few times and stop. The scary one is when he chokes me. He makes me think he's going to kill me. He's said it while he choked me. It freaks me out. I know I shouldn't be in this relationship but I'm not without my problems. I have attachment issues. BAD. I need a counselor but honestly, they dont do much. Some stress relieving activities and a place t vent. Maybe some meds. I Don't now what I need. A shouldr to cry on maybe? He's in front of me now. I'm here because I'm sad. We've been fighting since valentines day. He's like a marathon fighter. He told me everything I've done wrong in the past few months yesterday. Ok gotta go for now, I'll finish my story. WaIr for the next installment from DigitalChaos.