I feel guilty feeling so shit about everything, everyone else here has real problems, people dying, dying themselves, financial instability, real problems. I have none of that, loving family, friends, admittedly was rejected a few days ago but that's life I guess, not the cause of all this. Don't know why but I still just want to be hit by a car or slip into a coma or something. Too weak to do it myself because of the hurt it would leave on everyone I leave behind (friend committed suicide 3 years ago, saw what damage it did then won't put it on anyone else). What gives? I wish everyone would stop fighting and stop being afraid of what everyone else thinks, less drama more love - life is far too short. I want something terrible and non-fatal to happen to me, just to take weeks out of college/life and not be blamed for it. How stupid does that sound? Haha... | |
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