LIFE SUCKS

life as a human is incredibly meaningless

i dont really no where to start but im 20 now. i enjoyed my life when i was a kid as u have no understanding of what life as a human really is. i was happy till i was 10 n then all of my family got ill includin me, my mum was diagnosed with breast cancer in 1997, my dad got diabetes and my sis got anorexia. i had somethin called M.E which is fatigue syndrome. i struggled in scool and to get involved in social aspects of being young. my mum passed away when i was 14. i had to be strong at the start as my sis went into a deep depression and my dad needed some support. i was goin to college but i couldnt concentrate for very long n i wasnt happy. i always felt better when i was goin home cause i could be with my dad n my very special dog who i got so close to, but she died a year ago. i havent got a job n im very depressed bout life, well let me put that a different way i love life but i hate the people in charge n i hate bein human n havin to live under pressure all of the time. life is not meant to be like this. were brought up to understand bout how were supposed to be, were meant to go to scool n then college to qualify for somethin we want to do with ourselves for money. we will then go to the job centre for money so we can survive not live as we cant find a job. were the one n only species that live our life like this. i find it pathetic. i love other animals as they no how to live to their potential where as us we dont get anywhere near that because were not allowed to. im not quite sure of what the meanin of living on this beautiful planet as a human is.