In my school time i had good friends(boys & girls both). I was funny, naughty,intelligent and well known in almost all the schools also as a good & nice person. for high school i went to some other school/area, there people were different. So i never made friend. I spend my time living alone and it changed me a lot, my thinking and myself. In my college i find few good friend but till that time it become my habit to live alone/reserved and i never care about friends or other much. I never had GF, no other activities, never went out(not from my city/home) for trip or something, just sit all the time in my room and thinking. I really think alot,sometime i don't even know what i am thinking or why. I am a average person from look and body/health
Now i completed clg and working on job about 1.5 year.
But now from few months i am feeling very alone. it comes in mind often but this time it is great and i am unable to handle or solve or distract myself.
Thing is that from last 2-3 months, first my clg friends forced me and i started go out with them, then a girls from my school time met me, we talk almost daily online and i met with my other school time friends. Now we friends go out,talk about old days. This really makes me feel good.
Now the problem is that they are the same as funny, had great time in life, GF-BF & other so i feel like not a part of group anymore. I don't talk much, only serious talk if i, nothing to share really.
because of my reserved nature, my heart wants to be with my friend, wants to do all the things i never really did but my mind refuses it. Some of my friend going to other country but most of them are still here even though my mind says that you are going to be alone once again So i am feeling very odd and alone. It's not like i want to be alone but keep thinking again and again that i am still alone in this world. | |
will you be my friend?
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