Hi, i'm 19 years old. I have very little friend and fewer family i interact with any more. mainly because of a family feud that finally climaxed 1 year ago after a extremely stress full ten years of my life. after this conflict with in my family my father stole 500 dollars from me which was supposed to be used toward my collage courses. and because i didn't have the money i failed my classes. And because i failed they kicked me out. i lost all my friend from collage. i tried to transfer to another school but they required me to show them my grades from my previous school. and i was able to access my grades because i still cant pay for the fines that should've paid for if my father didn't steal the money. now i'm stuck doing nothing because i don't have enough experience to get a job any where. and this only covers the financial situation that i'm in. Mentally i have been put on medication that makes me think... differently. i hate it. i feel like i'm turning in to some one else when i take them for too long. and well with dealing with this and my family dispute that has every one involved at each others throats i haven't really been in a relation ship. i've had sex but as soon as women learn of my many problems they run. So i'm alone, possibly unstable, broke, tired of everything, and now sacred and i don't know why. the only escape that i find now is in my dreams. But my dreams are always about me having a better life and every time i wake up i have nothing to look forward to. I'm tired of life. Damn.