I used to get depressed often about the different circumstances life has thrown at me but now it seems like I'm slowly starting to understand how life works.
Bukowski once said: "some people never go crazy; what truely horrible lives they must lead"
For the sane individual, which seems to be a dying breed nowaday, you will get depressed in this lifetime. There is no way a good hearted person can live happily with the emptiness that surrounds them. You will hurt.
It can be from anything from losing your best friend to being aware of what governments are doing as a result of greed of man. Destruction of our planet by man. Religious tension. Racism. Poverty. Or maybe just the lack of compassion people have for each other. Everything is losing love.
Now I am not saying my life suck. My life is rather great actually. It is the world that won't allow a sane individual to live happily.
I am in med school now and will be a doctor in a few year. I used to had the vision of living luxuriously and safely with a big salary when i finished school, I won't lie. But over the years, being aware of the world around me and the event that have beat up my mind over the years, I am starting to go numb. I don't even fear death anymore. It can't be much worse than how humans have tainted the earth. I will be specializing in Infectious Disease. Im going MSF and going to Africa. In a country where there is poverty, people are more human. Id rather use my knowledge to help real humans.
Here's to going numb. To finally giving up on chasing the fairy tale life and accepting life for the piece of shit it has become. Free | |
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