How to overcome
your loneliness

Stop Anxiety
and panic attacks

Dating advice
for women over 30

Save Your Relationship
No Matter How Bad
Your Situation Appears


Stories submitted by real people.

[Tell Your Story]

Bookmark and Share


Abuse  Addictions  Alcohol  Anger  Anxiety  Appearance  Attitude  Bad Luck  Childhood  Crime  Death  Disappointment  Drinking  Drugs  Environment  Failure  Family  Friendship  General  Health  Independent circumstances  Job  Justice  Juvenile problems  Life Story  Loneliness  Meaninglessness  Mistakes  Money  Philosophical  Poverty  Prank  Racial  Relationship  Religion  Reputation  School  Sexuality  Society  Sociopathy  Stepdad  Stepmom  Stress  Tragic Events  Unemployment  Violence  

Archive by Month:
July 2012
2012 June
2012 May
2012 April
2012 March
2012 February
2012 January
2011 December
2011 November
2011 October
2011 September
2011 August
2011 July
2011 June
2011 May
2011 April
2011 March
2011 February
2011 January
2010 December
2010 November
2010 October
2010 September
2010 August
2010 July
2010 June
2010 May
2010 April
2010 March
2010 February
January 2010
December 2009
November 2009
October 2009
September 2009
August 2009
July 2009
June 2009
May 2009
April 2009
March 2009
February 2009
January 2009
November 2008
October 2008
September 2008
May 2008
February 2008
January 2008

Самая свежая информация แทงบอล.

I'm so lonely I want to die.

Posted by maylee at February 19, 2012
Tags: 2012 February  Loneliness

Hi, I'm maylee. I'm 18 years old, I have no friends, and I want to die. I'm so lonely, I can't stand it. I feel strapped and alone. The worst part is, there's no way I could get drugs, alcohol, or even a fuck to make the pain go away for a while.

My parents hate eachother, they only got married because my mom got pregnant with me. I ruined their lives by being born. And I'm still ruining their lives by being such a problem child. I can't take it anymore, I just want to lie down and die. I hate life so much.


New Comment

By anonymous at 27,Feb,12 21:05

U are an amazing me if u want to talk..3134653847
By anonymous at 28,Feb,12 19:20

Watch out there are older men on here that are trying to contact the younger girls, be safe.
By anonymous at 03,Feb,13 06:01

How about us older guys who NEVER had a YOUNG woman for a lover?! What the FUCK are we all? DIRTY OLD MEN TO BE FEARED?! FUCK ANYBODY WHO IS SICK ENOUGH TO TREAT ME THAT WAY. I am 41 years of age, told I look HALF THAT AGE and according to some nice women who can stand to pay me a compliment am apparently "beautiful" to look at. I have a wicked sense of humor, full of compassion and empathy, creatively talented in many ways from improvised music to cooking to quantum mechanics and anything in between, a lot of fun when I feel good about myself, patient (I will get to just how much soon...), forgiving, generous to a fault when all my problems fail to render me a total self-absorbed idiot - wherein lies the problem. I AM SO FUCKING LONELY, miserable, consumed with self doubt and grief that I think about ending my life every day. I have had a one night stand at 21 with a woman aged 31. Then six months later was asked by another woman the same age to start a relationship. After a few years I realised I was trapped in a totally toxic and unfulfilling relationship which CHEWED UP HALF OF MY LIFE, THAT'S RIGHT TWENTY GODDAMN YEARS! I overcame my grief to work myself stupid to buy a house, then four years ago it all went cold. Now I am alone, destroyed, penniless and more distressed than ever! I have lost EVERYTHING and I would give anything to have that time again. If I am some kind of a threat to a young woman then TELL ME WHY!! All I want to do is MAKE LOVE. I went through all of this, after NINE YEARS of unbearable frustration and ZERO confidence - having been heartbroken at the age of 13 by a classmate who is still one of the most beautiful girls I ever saw in my life. I was an "ugly duckling" and after spending years reinventing myself I still feel like an utter failure with women. I am NOT INTERESTED in being with an older woman EVER AGAIN. I need hot young OVERSEXED women in my life. I always get lovely smiles from them but ALWAYS there is a glass barrier which may as well be a mile thick!! So does that make ME someone to fear? Perhaps it should if you want to pretend I am unworthy of love from someone who could excite me! I hate that because I am a certain age or "older" (which never stopped cradle-snatchers from chasing ME!) that I would be made to feel so thoughtlessly included in a group that people should be warned about. Not every male out there was a SUCCESSFUL WOMANISER, and I DESERVE BETTER THAN TO FEEL I MISSED MY CHAMCE AT FULFILLMENT. Damn anyone who disagrees, those people make me want to fucking DIE!
By anonymous at 23,May,13 06:32

don't freak, but have you ever thought about an intimate relationship with another man? sure, it's not for most people, but it could give you a whole new outlook on who is interested in you and for what. just a thought.
By anonymous at 20,Feb,16 22:40 Fold Up

You're crazy!

By anonymous at 28,Feb,12 11:32

hey maylee. i don't know how much i can't help you but i think i can make you feel less lonely by at least talking to you and listening to your problems. my email is

By anonymous at 28,Feb,12 14:03

that's not true & you know can always meet people, get a job...pain goes away through what now? another lie...okay, alright just give up and tell yourself lies and by the sucks because your in the way of it.
By anonymous at 28,May,18 20:34

you are one cruel person

By at 28,Feb,12 16:55

Well first off... I'm so very sorry that all of these things are going wrong in your life. I know it feels like it will be this way forever, and I know how much that feeling hurts... but you need to trust in the fact that it will not always be this way, things can get better, but for that to happen 'you' have to actively decide to make them better.

If you're anything like me, hearing the advice 'You have to make it better' sounds awful and impossible, but read on and maybe I can persuade you otherwise.

It's not your fault for being born, and it's certainly not your fault that your parents marriage is getting shaky. Lots of times people have a wonderful life together once their married, but sometimes people eventually find out that they just don't want to be together. This certainly isn't a reflection on you, this is entirely on their shoulders and if they are in any way making you feel like it is your fault then it's pretty damn likely that they just can't handle the situation and are displacing their feelings onto you. In ten or twenty years they'll apologize to you for the pain they've caused you, but for right now just remember that somewhere down deep they really do love you. Ask them to hug you, to watch a movie with you, tell them (without getting angry) how unhappy you are. I don't know you parents, so I don't know if that will help, but it's worth a try).

Next off- while I fully support the use of non-narcotic drugs (MJ), I deplore the use of any intoxicant used to temporarily suppress emotional pain. Trust me, they don't solve any problems, and when used for the wrong reasons they can end up doing things to your life that will make feeling lonely a cake-walk by comparison. Sex on the other hand... that's not so bad (as long as you're safe in all respects). ;)

I'd suggest that you seek out, preferably without your parents help, the aid of a professional psychologist. This is NOT a weakness on your part, it's nothing to feel bad about, if anything it's something that should help you feel less lonely and will improve your quality of life! we all need someone to talk to, and no matter how useful the internet is - it can never replace the connection of sharing your soul with someone else in person. Since a huge part of the issue at hand seems to be your parents however, let me reiterate that you should seek out a psychologist ON YOUR OWN. You parents should pay for him/her but they must not have a say in who you go to. Remember if you're not totally comfortable with your psychologist, you need to find a new psychologist.

Finally, just in case you don't follow my previous advice, I will leave you with a koan (a sort of Japanese meditation riddle, check Wiki for more information).

"When something confronts you - don't believe it".

The goal of the koan is simply to meditate on it. Just keep it somewhere in your mind, and let it surface whenever you come across a moment when everything seems to bleak for words.

Anyway, all my love and best wishes, one human being to another. I hope I've helped, and I hope that you live a long and wonderful life, filled with the knowledge that the future doesn't matter, that only the moment you are in matters. No past, no future, only the eternal 'now'.

Peace and long life

By anonymous at 29,Feb,12 08:33

hey odin u seem to be a very wise guy i read ur comment and i really agree with u ;P

By anonymous at 08,Apr,12 19:58

i want to die to cuz im alone but im 27

By anonymous at 06,May,12 10:27

Maylee I would first of all be Leary about using my real name on internet if you did. Second of all I would be very Leary of anyone that gave you there number to contact them. Be cautious.Very cautious. Third of all, I know exactly how you feel my parents got married because my Mom got pregnant with me. They were both in college. My Dad had just been offered a full ride scholarship (academic) to an engineering school in Boston and my Mom was going into journalism. When my Mom got pregnant with me it turned both of their worlds upside down and inside out. My Mom was kicked out of the house by an aunt who was raising her and my Dad disgusted and angered

By anonymous at 06,May,12 10:39

(Cont) his whole family by not taking that scholarship. Growing up I felt like my Mother hated me. I was miserable. I wished at times that she would have just aborted me. Then I stopped feeling sorry for myself. I repeat, feeling sorry for myself and began doing things to make me feel good about myself. Get a hobby. Do something positive! Drugs aren't the answer. Sex is not the answer. Those are dumb solutions to your problem. Do something positive for someone else but do me and yourself a favor. Stop feeling sorry for yourself. Have a good day.
By anonymous at 21,Nov,12 02:17

fuck you ! depression is a serious disease OK!! so fuck you saying that their feeling sorry for themselves..maybe you were but that doesn't mean everyone can just go and fucking play soccer or whatever the fuck your hobby is, and just forget their problems you narrow minded motherfucker!

By anonymous at 11,Jun,12 12:52

I want to die too. Why do people rarely, if ever, see that suicide is a viable option? I don't believe in an eternal hell - that's unjust. A finite amount of wrongs probably isn't punished forever. So I want to die for several reasons:
-I've reached the limit of suffering I'm willing to endure. Dying will cause my suffering to end & to avoid future suffering (in this environment , separated from the source of hope - God)
-to be with my dead loved ones (one of which I can't live without)
-and also to know the truth about God (no more blind faith)

To the poster - I'm sorry you feel the way you do. I can't claim to understand your pain (as you couldn't understand mine as well). Just know there are other people who feel a "similiar" need to end this life. God be with you know matter what happens.

By anonymous at 16,Sep,12 09:42

1m old, 58, my wife ,and daughter, want have anything to do with me, my wife left me nearly a year ago, i have been trying to get her to come back, but all she wants from me is money,, the day aren't to bad, and my adopted family r my world, ,but they cant help when the nights i wake so sad i cry, i cant kill my self, but i do wish i would die, i so lonely and need someone, to hold, my back and other injuries keep me in a lot of pain, and i cant afford a Dr, i wish i would go to sleep and just not wake up..
By anonymous at 06,Mar,16 07:24

I feel for you, and that's why I am 45m and single. no wife no kids it scares me. it scares me to be in your position. thank GOD you have an adopted family that helps, but having no one can be really something not so good. I have my cousins without them I might go insane and who knows what. I pray for GOD to help me and give me direction and peace beyond understanding. I will pray for you.

By anonymous at 11,Nov,12 07:07

we share the same pain, friend. i just couldnt pull the trigger.

By anonymous at 20,Nov,12 16:45

I understand your pain so much ... but drugs and alcohol make the pain worse.Because of the hurt i was feeling i turned to drugs and alcohol and im now addicted to crack ... please no matter how hard it is dont turn to drugs!

By anonymous at 21,Nov,12 02:12

dude im so with you everything is so similar!
im worth shit.

By anonymous at 29,Nov,12 17:43

i am 48 and it get worse

By katlikeme23 at 08,Dec,12 00:56

I inderstand completely. I hope u feel better. Im a 24 y/old mom of two i feel bad for my sons that they cant have a mom who smiles and even with my fiance around me, im sti always so hurts so bad

By anonymous at 04,Jan,13 22:53

Well what important is u express ur feelings and whatever nor matter how fucked up they are and reach out to people.And dont let the rejections get u just keep it up its allways light in the end off the tunnel.
If ur afraid off that it get worse and secondly be active physically get an dog ore what ever.
Being active occupy the mind and make u less depressed=)
Nice that u had the courage to express urself peace.

By anonymous at 09,Jan,13 18:12

Same situation, katawa shoujo is just my source of friends, replaying over and over to stop my loneliness

By anonymous at 06,Apr,13 19:13

I've never had any friends since the age of 18. After that I have been on my own. I cannot drink or smoke as it upsets me medically. So I've never bothered socialising. I've been overweight since about 10 years old. Not fat, just plump. Never seem to build any muscles even when I exercised a lot. Just stayed the same shape. One girl thought I was nice to be a 'friend' to. But she wasn't romantically attached to me. So that ended pretty quickly. I don't like people that much. Most of them are inferior mentally to me. I like being alone. You can do what you like when you like. In fact being alone is liberating. I say to all of you who think loneliness is a bad thing there's only one thing worse than it: that's having other people growing old with you and eventually you'll end up looking after them (and hating it) or they'll end up looking after you (and you'll all hate it). Being alone means you live alone and you die alone. And we all die alone. Since we're nothing more than highly evolved nanotechnology it doesn't matter in the great scheme of things anyway. So enjoy being lonely. I do.

By epLDXUZWiGAetse at 01,Jan,16 14:02


By anonymous at 20,Feb,16 22:51

Maylee, I know this is a very old post & you're years wiser, but I really hope you've found to love yourself & have a better life than when you wrote this blog. No one is ever responsible for their own existence, but we are responsible for our journey through life & what we need to do to achieve our destiny. Be gentle w/yourself, you are worth loving & others can see it. Take a risk to show your love & compassion to others & you will be their blessing. I've felt the same as you before & still do at times, but I try to remember someone "out there " needs my smile, my hug, my kind word- those little things may make all the difference in their day or life. These little things may just be the thing that makes them keep faith that someone in this big, often complex world, cares about them. Anyway, I really pray you're living a life now w/more smiles, than tears! Hugs to you & anyone else who may need one!

By anonymous at 13,Sep,16 18:55

I am speechless. I have never thought any one else could feel the way I do. God bless !

By anonymous at 12,May,17 00:17

Im a Vet, took all sorts of claases and groups
IT DOES NOT GET BETTER !!! Any 1 who tells it does is full of bs and never seen the real world !!! I to am ready to die im tired and want peace that only death can offer
Dont talk about God there is no God only the Devil and he is Man and women When u die ur food 4 the worms THATS IT !!! No heaven... hell... pardise ...Ive seen people die lots...never seen ANYTHING 2 prove ur nothing but worm food
Dyeing is easy !!! LIVING now thats the Hard part
MY Kids are all grown up and dont need me me wife hates Death is such a piss poor shot he takes ever 1 i love and keeps missing just achunk of meat

By Steve at 13,Apr,18 15:38

Hi There,

My name is Steve from SteveWebJobs a professional Animated Promotional Video Company.

Would you be interested in having an animated marketing video for your company to help increase your online exposure?

We can create a custom animated promo video to help market your business more efficiently.

If you’re interested, please reply back to this message and I will send you a link to some animated promotional videos we created so you can see what we can do.

By Aly Chiman at 26,Feb,19 15:11

Hello there,

My name is Aly and I would like to know if you would have any interest to have your website here at promoted as a resource on our blog ?

We are in the midst of updating our broken link resources to include current and up to date resources for our readers. Our resource links are manually approved allowing us to mark a link as a do-follow link as well
If you may be interested please in being included as a resource on our blog, please let me know.


New Comment