Hi everyone, here I am! Just me...grew up without a dad
Kind of disfuctunal family yet in the outside we had and seen like the norm family.
Got burned by my family even do I know they love me, got burned by my biggest loving trusting relatioship. I found myself alone, empty and yes most people they were like you are great, lovely, good looking from my family, work and friends yet I didn't feel it none of it not real.
I wanted to feel something that it almost didn't exsist...what is life? Real love? Feeling safe and understood, why is it so hard to achieve? It's just basics, I am not talking about money and the moon.
You give up your finances, looks don't matter anymore, life just becomes a burden and yes we don't have the guts to ended because of religion, family or just because we some how know that there has to be more than this... So I started saying to myself I need to research
All this things without spend hundreds of dollars on "professional help" and prepscriptions that make you feel worst and "cover up the problem". Will you like to hear some words of wisdom?
I learned about meditation screw that I don't have the patiences... Yet when someone is hurting you with words or looks, picture your self being sorrounded by white light almost like a caccon still look at them as if u were listing and pay attention if they say " r u listing in ?" ur mind is so powerfull
Keep track of what it's being said yet u r in control at this point u r there yet ur self and energy r being protected by u. And when u do this ur brain will automatically will start to figure out what steps to take to not be in this situation.
This may sound nuts but it was though to me, if someone close to you is so intence, they don't hit you yet they can't break you down and you have nowhere to go. If you have a chance to make an occacional eye contact, look timid yet don't make eye contact look at the forhead and picture a purple star, this is done by specialist to come someone down yet u have to be settle.
If u r being abouse physicly or sexually, I am sorry yet this people think that u r summisive and can do as they please because you have no outlet, money, family support and so on. It's like a bear trying to corner a rabbit. Yet the bear is big and clumpsy at the right time u can sneak out of there.
And not I don't encourage for u to run out of home you will continue to expirience the same kind of people. Start very slow and carefully, open your third eye, be a ninga! Trust your self and your intuitions...find within your life your friend families that you can be sheltered and really care for, the lost relative that was cast away just like you because that way she or he saw life yet don't go crying to someone and pour your self out you don't need pity you need love an support.
So take it slow we are very smart and we can mold to new things
As long as you don't have expectations for you or someone else,
If u can master that there is NO expectations from anyone including ur self a weight is lift it.
We don't choose our family, television and sociaty teach us that we should have the perfect home the nice working dad the amazing sweet mom maybe a sister and or brother you can kind of pick on here and maybe a cute dog? Well I am sorry to burst your bubble but I have friends that their parents are doctors and the kids t screwed up because there is no love Is completely empty, you can be a child in the projects or low class, middle or high class and you can still feel the same.
Don't get lost in expectations, they r changing to quickly
By 19 u should know ur carrier, by 28-30 u should be married, by 34 you should have kids a house and a dog, by ur 50-60 get ready to retired and drive an rv.
This is what ur brain and everyone else have has as well that's why every one is so pissed starting with our grandparents, we set our selfs with failure.
I am an artist I do grafitty on canvas and do art shows, I went to college for fashion bec my parents didn't want me to be a starving artist! I have a m-f job that allowed me to be chill yet it is a serious job. I got into property management by accident ( no college required! ) so I don't pay rent, bec of my famous last name ( u can always change ur name I u don't like yours) I have a website and sell accessories. Than finally for now is that Deniro is not hot but he get laid why bec he focused in the good in him. Use all this crazy expirierices you have had turn them slowly into a benefit for you, be Adam Sandler not very cute, could be better actor yet he gives its all and doesn't give a flying flammingo what u think about him, it took hI'm years to do that.
And I have been compared to Milas Kunis, email me at endlessummer23@yahoo.com if I can be a little band aid in your life! Cheers! Love, me :) | |
Mila Kunis is a very general description. Mila Kunis can exist in the eye features, the lips or The skin and hair color. While it is a very lovely idea there are many people who claim this similarity and it is only a physical thing so people should have wanted to contact you based on your soul not your appearance, which Im sure is nice but it will attract the wrong people esp. if you are trying to get someone to like you by pretending you are someone else.
I wish I could have made out what you were saying because some of it sounded good, like the rabbit and bear analogy and being a ninja. Work on expressing yourself and you can go far.
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