Why do some people have it so easy? My sisters a track star, volleyball star and she makes straight A's. I hear my parents brag about her achievements all the time to friends and co-workers and every time it makes me feel worse and worse about myself. I have no motivation to do anything and I dont know why, maybe its because im afraid of failing? Im going to community college to become a vet and even that goal is becoming less and less realistic, my parents are paying for everything at 20 fucking years old. I cant find a job no matter how hard I try. I cant even get and interview and I have no idea what Im doing wrong. and yet my best friend who is far lazier than I am has one in less than a week. I cant vent my problems to anyone because theyll all tell me the same thing, that Im the source of my own problems and theyd be right which just makes me feel even worse about myself. My parents yell at me over the dumbest shit. Didnt do so hot on a test? That means I dont care about anything and im going end up working as a garbage man. They pick apart everything I do and get condescending and nasty everytime they see something they dont like. I get agitated and then I become the bad guy, IM the one thats in the wrong because "I got an attitude". Hell, I think I might be gay and I'm terrified to tell anyone about it because of what people might say or do. Go ahead, call me ungrateful, entitled, spoiled. Whatever, I have heard it all before. Im used to being alone.