I'm 19 years old and have absolutely no family. I'm not suicidal, nor have I ever thought about it. My mom left me at 4. I've never met my dad, let alone a hint. I lived with my grandmother uniformity she passed away. So I lived in foster care from 14 till 18. I dropped out at 16 and got my g.e.d, and started working. I have a decent job but its frustrating. I don't fuck with with people. I don't consider people my friends. Fuck friends there bullshit. Bitches make me mad too. I mean, getting layed is not a issue, it's trying to find love. I mean no one loves me!!! No one. I'm all alone. It made me angry, made me hate people. I fucking hate people with families. I'm broke as shit cause I have to buy all my shit! I hate people with parents. Especially ones with money that pay for all thier shit. I try to find the good in life there's just so much shit I don't have that others do. I'm so alone. I want to be loved! Why me!! I know a dumb bitch won't love me. I'm talking about the real shit. Unconditional love. I always think why me. It rages inside me. If there is a god I'm pissed off at his ass too. I doubt there is though, I've prayed so much when I was younger and nothing happened. I know ill never have a family and ill probably never be shit. Too many disadvantages. I mean no one understands the pain. To be absolutely alone at my age. It's unfair. If you have a, as in 1 family member your fucking blessed! Families disgusting me now. I hate all that shit. Cause ill never have it. I honestly have no fucking clue what life has in store in for me. But I guarantee it will suck ass and I'm won't be able to see what good shit is there, because of all the shit I don't have that I'm reminded of everyday by you motherfuckers. So big thanks so everything, if gods ass exists then him too. Im just so angry all the time. I fucking hate everything.