1. im a 19 year old virgin
2. ive never had a gf
3. i've always been rejected by everyone
4. i was beaten by my mom up until the age of 18 for reasons ranging from not following directions going outside when im not supposed getting bad grades and too many other things to count
5. always been the bitch of the family who just takes it
6. i work my ass off but i dont get to keep ANY of my money . it all goes to the house
7. i have anxiety and im not sure whats happenened to my body
8. ive had at least 5 panic attacks at the job because of my anxiety but my mom wont let me quit.
9. everytime i go to work my anxiety seems to shoot up and it gets really hard to breath
10. i find young/teenage girls attractive so i guess im a closet pedophile/hebephile
11. the only girls that due find an interest in me are illegal or fat
12. i have no social life
13. i have no freinds
14. i have no social skills which keeps me from getting a normal girl freind in the first place
15. the most i can do with a girl is be nice to them a couple times before i withdraw from fear of rejection which ive experienced my WHOLE FUCKING LIFE
16. i wear jacked up fucking "Malcolm X" looking glasses
17. i have no nice clothes money or car to take a girl ....who would ever want to be with a broke ass guy like me?
18. my hair looks like shit
19. did i mention i have no clothes except raggedy ass shirts and jeans?
20. my brothers and sister get treated better then me always have always will.
21. i never had a real father figure.
22. all of the chances i ever had with a girl were squashed by my mother / sister aswell through fear ....
23. i was always discouraged at an early age by my mother an sister mainly to stay away from all things sexual and sensual with the opposite sex especially white girls ..they said "you could rape them and go to jail" even though i dont know how a 12 year old boy or a young teenager can do that by simply liking and trying to talk to them
24. im a loser...a pathetic nobody
25. i was always the wierd one in high school...
26. i dont trust anyone really.
27. i never received the love i needed from my parents
28. i took 50 milligrams of a drug called 4aaco and ended up having a BAD trip a few minutes after ingesting i told my mom i needed to go to the hospital.... instead of taking me there she beat the shit out of me and told me how much of a dumb ass idiot i was before finally taking me to the hospital which made things a HELL of alot worse then they could of been.
29. i am a bitch because i take this shit and she is "the only one that loves me"....she always told me this after she wooped my ass
30. i masterbate to porn until my dick is dry everyday because this bicth cant get a girl
31. the beatings are done but the damage is done the pain will always be there....im a pathetic little stupid insecure bitch because of it.