LIFE SUCKS

Nothing!

I am 31 and for one why my life sucks,is as I was growing up My mother an extreme alcoholic used to lie to the courts about how she treated me,how she still treats me,even though I dont currently live with her!for food,I had literally,eat scraps of food I could find.people would make fun of me,often told me to go kill myself,she would never allow me to shower,and when i got that luxury,it was only about 30 sec. she sent me away to programs because she didnt want to take care of someone who was trash,and who would end up selling drugs,which btw I did anyways.every guy who I have been with,wanted nothing to do with me,one of them slamming me head into a pole!my nose was bleeding so much,what did my mom do?she put my head into a sink and held it underwater!any friends i do have was from bieng promiscuous on the streets,I never had a real child hood!My dad left and when i wanted to go with him,my mom refused to let me,cause she wanted to get the $ that would come in monthly from the government!she would lie about how smart I was just to make everyone feel like I was mentally unstable!she made me feel guilty about living,she would also tell the police that I was a chronic liar everytime I came home at night with bruises!she would have other kids on the block treat me like dirt,lower than dirt by pushing,shoving,spitting,kicking,punching etc.and she would laugh!everytime I found happiness or little success,she would destroy in front of me in a blink of an eye!and sometimes I wonder why she didnt abort me,a perfectly normal young girl and young woman?idk,Im sure others have it worse,but thats why my life sucks!