I am 25, will be 26 in may...
As a high school student i was smart, A+ student...
went to university and thats where it all went down hill... started off as a med student... by my second semester i hated it, switched faculties... then i started missing classes for no reason, figured i cud still pass my exams, but i didnt... spent 4 years at university and still didnt have my degree and was asked to withdraw for a year, but i met a girl while "studying" and we got married... spent a year doin odd jobs then she divorced me, till i got a fairly good paying job at the power company... now two years down the road... i was told that in April my 3 year contract will be terminated.
With no other job prospects in sight, i have rent to pay, school loans to pay for a degree i never got, and a girlfriend that is cheating on me...
where do i go? who do i turn to for help?
Cant turn to God, because i really dont believe in that...
My thoughts right now are centered on suicide, just ending it all...
since finding out i will be unemployed come May, and nothing but a high school diploma no job will pay enough to cover all my expenses...
I've made mistakes in my life, alot of mistakes... so many regrets...
Just wish i could go back and undo them... probably shouldnt have quit medicine, or skipped classes, or partied as much as i did...
i'm gonna be 26 soon, and all my friends are employed, and moving forward... but here i am stuck and no idea what i'm gonna do...
easiest thing to do... hang myself... not like anyone wud really miss me... i've no family... a girlfriend that wont leave me cuz she feels guilty but she really wants too... got a couple friends... but then they dont really answer my calls or return them...
Just here all alone, in this dark hole...
should probably just go hang myself... | |
Hi, I feel like I am going through the same thing you are. Even though the situation and circumstances are different, still the feeling of worthlessness and nothingness is the same. At this moment I feel like giving up... but somehow I just keep telling myself tomorrow is going to be better. I say this to myself every day. I pray, I talk to myself... cause me is all I have at this moment. Life all can't be downhill, someday; oneday life will seem brighter better. All we got to do is tough the storm now, encourage ourselves and believe in a better tomorrow.
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