LIFE SUCKS

Dumb Puerto Rican

7 years ago I moved to USA from Puerto Rico. I started in Florida, then to Georgia then back to Florida, things didnt go well so I decided to go back to PR, all in the same year(2003). Came back in 2005 to GA then moved back to PR in 2006. Found work in PA and before my year on the job I moved back GA to help my mom. In 2008 I moved to FL, again. I was really depressed because I wanted to have an American white-blonde-blue-eyes girlfriend so I decided to get really drunk. I walked into this bar and started talking to the bartender. At the end of the night she gave me her number. Month later I moved to MA just to be 3 hours away from her. She lives in NH and was in FL for the summer of 2008. So 3 months into the relationship and we decided to move in together. It lasted 7 months. One day on a very cold night under 30 inches of snow she told me she needed space. I totally freaked and moved to San Diego. I wish I would of never done that. Then she calls me while in CA, tells me shes 8 weeks pregnant but the thing is I cant have kids. So here I am in San Diego with a broken heart and single again. By the way she was perfect, cheerleader all her life, amazing green eyes, blond and white skin; also I had this notebook where I wrote something romantic almost everyday and she was just loving it. Anyways single and with the thought that my perfect girl cheated on me I took off to Tijuana, Mexico where of course I got drunk on Tequila and luckly woke up in San Diego with all of my organs and no STD's. So its now May 2009 and Im taking a plane back to my island of Puerto Rico. Spent 6 months on the beach thinking about how fucked up my journey thru America was. September 2009 I came back to GA where my parents live. One morning I got pissed off and stole a car from a dealership. Jail time: 45 days. What an idiot! Now 25 and a felon in GA. Serving 3 yrs on probation. No job, court fines to pay, no car, no girl, no college. It could be worse but right now life sucks. My choices were not smart. Moved around so much that I didnt really make any friends. Many sexual encounters but no long term love. Now alone feeling stupid for sharing and not a damn dollar in my pocket. One more thing I live 20 miles away from the nearest Wal-Mart.