I don't wanna bore you with another long and drawn out story with far too much background details, so I'll just concisely sum up where I'm at in my life right now -- 20 year old friendless virgin with a useless, broken dick (irreversible scar tissue damage from jerking off too quick/gripping too hard), 6'3" and a half, 140 pounds, yet I still have fat rolls and love handles (skinny fat guy), never kissed/hugged/dated/spoken to a girl before and I've dropped out of school. I've had Social Anxiety Disorder since I was a kid, too.
I only own one pair of jeans 'cause I'm too poor to afford more. I've never owned a cellphone or much of anything else, either. My parents are on welfare and my dad is a crazy and abusive religious nutcase who's also a misogynist and believes women are worthless, when he indeed is the most worthless and useless piece of shit in the cosmos. Haven't left the house in 5 months and don't plan to anytime soon.
I never had many friends growing up or at school and I did my best to keep them around. That included buying them lunch with the little money I had, even if that meant I'd starve most of the time. I always did little things like that, but they've all forgotten about me. I haven't spoke to any of them in years, and in feeling alone, I hit up some Internet chat-rooms, met some girls and felt human again.
After seeing a picture or two of 'em, it became pretty evident that they were vapid, impressionable and insecure high school girls. A blonde cheerleader, to be exact. She only dates jocks and would puke if she knew who was on the other side of the screen, but hell, she's just gone ahead and presumed I'm an alpha-male and threatens to fall into bouts of depression if I don't talk to her 5-6 hours a day. Through trying to cure my loneliness, I only added to my problems.
The cherry on the top is that my parents aren't originally from the US, and they plan on moving back to their country and living the rest of their days there. Although I understand the language, I can't speak it. It's a shitty old place in a shitty old village where hot water is as rare as gold -- and that's the place where I'm gonna be living for the rest of my life.