Well my tag line tells it all. I'm a forty year old female: 5"4, 180lbs. Three years ago, my boyfriend dumped me- (you know, the one who I thought was the "love of my life"). So, I decided to relocate to a ski town so at least I could find pleasure in being surrounded by mountains.
I found a good job working at the local hospital, and things seemed to be looking up for me- or so I thought...
January 5th, 2012 I severely fractured my ankle,(slipped on ice) and was forced to be out of work for 3 months. I returned to work too soon- but financially couldn't afford not to work- my ankle was not even close to being healed. Especially working on it for 12hrs a day...
While at work at the hospital, limping around with an air cast, I managed to hurt it further by releasing one of the shitty brakes on one of the shitty hospital beds. They (the hospital) required me to fill out workman's comp paper work. Three months later, they fired me. I had become too much of a "liability". Highly illegal, but they were able to fire me with "too many absences". Complete bullshit, really since I only had five in an entire year! In any case, the day they fired me, I drove around in my car like a zombie, not knowing what to do-
The staff that I worked with, tried to complain, but conveniently, the Director of Nursing took off the afternoon that she fired me, and then proceeded to take the rest of the week off. Nice.
Then, I found another job. Not as good as the hospital, but at least something- to help pay the bills...
I live alone.
In anycase, because of my injury, I can barely walk. I have a constant limp/gimp, and because I can't exercise like I used to (Absolutely no running or jogging) I have gained at least fifty pounds. It seems like it came outta no-where, but in reality, day after day of eating and not exercising has taken its toll...
I was really getting tired of being lonely, so I went on a dating website and had unprotected sex. Now I have herpes.
The Herpes virus if you are not familiar with it- is incurable. I can take prescription medication to ease the inflammation, but it is literally a total pain in the ass. It is expensive to acquire the prescription meds and now, of course, I am alone again.
The moral of my story is- don't go looking for love when you're down and out. In hindsight, if I had just stayed single and lonely, I wouldn't have herpes.
So not only am I fat because I can't exercise, I also can't have sex. Especially if I am having a "break-out".
What a bummer.
But then again, being in my state of mind, who would want to be with me?
I guess it helps to write about my problems... And I do appreciate this site. It makes me feel like I am not the only one out there with a shitty life.
Hopefully- it will get better?
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