I'm an alcoholic. I can't sleep. i just learned that one of my favorite beers, delirium tremens, is named after a severe symptom of alcoholism. I just found this website because i'm sitting alone and awake for way too long. I've been reading many of the other posts and i feel a little bit out of place. I'm miserable all the time and don't wanna hear comments about: 'God is watching he'll save you someday, just keep trying' that's bullshit. i didn't realize this was a religious site. I want to have a kick in the ass! I can't afford to pay for a therapist but sometimes, even though I know it already, I need someone to just call me out and say i'm full of shit! Any sob story could be outdone, we all like the pity potty, but sometimes instead of a hug we need a punch in the mouth! Anyone got one? | |
What drives you to drink? I know, everything right? But, if you find the root of your unhappiness, and trust me, it probably stems back to your early childhood... then you can target why you turn to alcohol to take your pain away...
I smoke pot now instead of drinking. It's a plant, and it's natural. And it should be legal.
In any case, I feel your struggle. I know your struggle. Your mind is telling you- it's ok buddy, have another...
Soon you slowly sink into depression... You might even get to the point where you have lost everything like the person posted above....
They say you have to bottom out- really get low, to eventually realize that you have a problem. But it's so good. It helps take the pain away. It's legal. It's in our face everyday through commercials, ads, and society accepts it. So until you bottom out- they say you convince yourself to keep on drinking?
Personally, after two failed relationships, two car accidents, an expensive DUI, and many AA meetings, it's finally sunk into my skull that, geee, I guess alcohol doesn't really do much for me...
Anyhow, that's my spin on being alcoholic. You either have a drink. Or you don't. And we can't just have one and be done. We have to drink until we can't feel anything anymore...
I am sorry and wish you could make yourself stop.
Your friend on Life Sucks,
Cursed
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