First off I was born to a broken family. A father who's alchoholism prevented him from being a part of my life, and an emotionally damaged and abusive mother. My mothers insanity drove my half brother away, as well as most of my other family. Despite being gifted she was very uninvolvedas far as a parent goes. Never once helped with homework so I quit doing it out of frustration. My days were mostly spent running around town unsupervised or latching on to the families of friends who had parents that were semi-involved. I got into lots of trouble growing up because I never got the attention I needed. Which would eventually lead to several stays in a psychiatric hospital at a very young age. As I developed into a teenager I became involved heavily with drugs alchohol criminal activity, and other people who were as depressed and suicidal as I was. This eventually led me to being confined in a residential school for adolescents with behavioral issues. I broke out of there and after several months living as a fugitive the police showed up and locked me in county jail. My dad found out about this and after 12 years of not being a part of my life allowed me to live with him. But he was incapableof providing the kind of support I needed. At one point we were living on some undeveloped. Land he owned that had no heating running water or electricity we were basically living out of tents. But alchoholism reared its ugly head again and after me and him got into it I left. I was bumming it for about 6 months in Madison before I got a job working for a traveling carnival and after saving enough money I finally had enough to return home. I bought myself a cheap car and got a job doing landscaping for below minimum wage. Eventually a friend let me move in but that didn't last to long until he got upset because I accidently smashedin his bumper. With nowhere to go I lost my job. Well I decided to give the military a shot. I did 15 months over in Iraq. I was a gunner for an explosive ordinance disposal team. I got blown up on three seperate occasions. And saw them drag several of my friends out of the back of destroyed vehicles. I honestly was about to break if it wasn't for one saving grace. A girl I had been in love with for the past 10 Yeats had somehow managed to reach me and we decided to pursue a relationship. When I returned to the states after deployment we got married and I took her and her disabled daughter. And tried to build a family for them I never had. But my wife was bipolar and thing soon began to break down in part because of my undiagnosed ptsd.. what was the last nail in the coffin was was when she told me she wanted a divorsr and I tried to kill myself. Prior to this I had decided to get out of the army to try and save my marriage. But it didn't even make it that long. When I returned home I got back into drinking and some. minor drugriend use to cope with my feelings but I soon quit drugs entirely. About 6 months after my return home I found out that my step daughter had died and my exwife hadn't even given me the courtesy of telling me. I still haven't had the chance to say my goodbye's. But ever the persistant person I managed to push forward. I had found myself beautiful new girlfriend and managed to get a house live in withwith who I thought was a good friend. It was around this time I got my first du i duo. Funnything is I didn't even blow over the limit. But they gave it to me anyway about this time my worthless roommate decided to stab me in the back he screwed me out almost a thousand dollars and managed to turn my friiends against me. So we both agreed to move out and I did but he stayed and squatted in the house and moved a. Bunch of people in. Well that beautiful girlfriend of mine ended up cheating on me in my old bedroom with some Guy I hated that my post roommate moved in just to spite me. In the I ended up getting depressed and. drinking and got my second dui. At least I was over the limit this time just barely though. So they give me a summary suspension and the day after it takes effect I get arrested for driving on a suspended this happened again about a week ago when I got pulled over 3 days after the suspension. Was released and I was just waiting to find time to pay the reinstatement fee I got.pulled over again as a result of all these rediculous court Dee's I can't afford to live anywhere but with my aunt and I'm likely going to spend time in jail. My only real family my dad is already sitting in prison for the next year. I've quit drinking and have been sober for almost a year but I can't seem to stay out of trouble if I try. I've been pulled so I'm guessing the state needs money or something. And I've been trying to juggle all of this as a dissabled vet with a full school schedule for college. over more in the past 2 years then I ever have been in my life I had almost an entire decade with a clean driving record.
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So, You stop doing homework because your mom won't help you do it...ok, so you start being a fuckup and that doesn't work out too well for you. Imagine that. So then you fuck around some more, get into more trouble, latch on to your boozer pops who has you living out of a tent with no facilities...
yeah...looks good from here! So then you decide, what the fuck, I'll go in the service because that's gonna straighten you right out! Nothing like a little war to cheer things up and give you perspective! But, alas, and amazingly, that doesn't work out so good either, what with getting blown up a few times, but hey, YOU GOT a girl you were pining for who somehow figured out you were available and found where you were! Incredibly enough, she's bi-polar and has a gimp kid to take care of! AHHH...musta been true love on here part!
Anyway...she goes bonkers and hits the road. Kids takes a dirt nap and she doesn't even have the consideration to tell you about it. You sure pick winners! BUT THEN......your somehow find a stunningly beautiful girl who for has to be blind and deaf I'm sure, but even she figures out "Hmmm...so we're going to crash on some guy's crib...um...ok...looks like I'll be getting that hot beef injection daily now! And she does,....from every guy who walks in! Again, imagine that!
...so from here we try on the booze because that's always worked so well for you, and you get not one, but TWO DUI's back to back, and then you get thrown in the poke for driving while suspended. man, you really got things working upstairs huh?
Look, what you deserve is a rousing chorus of "fuck you's", but I'm gonna help you out here, and provide meaningful direction. First, look in the mirror and repeat " I am the worlds biggest fuckup" ten times. Then, go online, and cancel all your college classes. get your money back and put it away. Walk...DO NOT DRIVE....to your nearest mcDonalds and apply. repeat three times at various McDonalds. Tell them you have bad attit...I mean PTSD...and you need a break. Make a month of Mickey D's pay and move in with your aunt. Make sure you give her all your take home pay except for 20%, which is your pocket money. One year after you move in, have your aunt find you an apartment and use some of the savings to get you into it. After that, for a period of 5 years, do the same thing with your money every month...give it to your aunt...and perhaps move up the Mickey D's ladder or..GASP...find a better job. Make your aunt pay the rent every month with your money because you're clearly to fucking stupid to do it. At the end of the 5 years , look into the mirror and repeat 10 times , " I am still the worlds biggest fuckup. Would you like to supersize that?"
...no fucking, no driving, no drinking...NOTHING! then, after 10 entire years have passed, you'll be just a regular fuckup, and you'll be well on your way to mediocrity.
You're welcome!
take him at his word.
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