Yup life sucks but I could really careless anymore. I'm 20 years old and have never really excelled at anything besides smoking weed and playing video games. I'm a high school drop-out, alcoholic, weed smoking,anti social coward that only has any courage when I'm piss drunk or blacked out. I ALWAYS end up getting beaten up because I'm a pushover when it comes to fighting even though I like to portray some sort of badass street dude when in reality its quite the opposite. I did have a job washing dishes and lost it in this last bout with depression which I will say was the worst in my life.
I'm only now getting over it.... well I don't even know if I'm over it I just don't fucking care anymore. A month ago I was on the fucking verge of killing my self. I was sleeping just to sleep because in my dreams I was most happy and had most fun, got laid, was a hero ect. Stopped eating almost completely. Lost probably like 20 odd pounds. Stopped talking to EVERYONE I knew (which was like 3 fucking people lol) and to top it off lost my job washing dishes. Fucking combo breaker son.
So here I am still alive and more determined then ever not to give fuck anymore. I still have the worst luck with life but hey its kind of easier once you just start to expect shit to go wrong. Like last Friday I acually manned up and when to the club by my self found a chick that was acually digging me only to get beaten to a bloody pulp leaving the club headed to my place. Got no action but did get a nice scar on my head. You know what I did? I laughed. Really rank. Probably was the most I've laughed all year. Blood pouring down my head and I'm just laughing like a fucking crazy person.
Idunno what the moral to that story is. Maybe just stop expecting to have a awesome life and just live. Take all the punches that life throws at you and fucking laugh. We may be at times beaten, bruised, sad, mad, pissed,and just ready to fucking give up but if you can find a way to laugh at the worst times in your life you my friend have punched life right back in its fucking face and said "fuck you I don't care bring it on noob". | |
You shouldn't expect the worst unless you're giving the worst effort.
Just relax and think: What do I have to do to make this better.
Then stop thinking and just do it.
Hope for the best, prepare for the worst, expect absolutely nothing.
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