I am a 24 year old college graduate living in New York City, and I am a virgin. It kills me every day. I've kissed a girl one time in my life. I tried all through college to get a girl to even kiss me, let alone have sex with me, but no such luck.
I'm ugly, nothing special. I kind of have that nerdy look and a bit of an acne problem which I'm sure doesn't help me. I'm 5'10 and very scrawny, like 160lbs. No matter how much I eat I can't seem to bulk up, and I'm ashamed to go to the gym and be around all the big jocks while I struggle to lift weights.
I'm in love with a girl, my best friend from college, but I'm stuck forever in the friend zone. To make matters worse, her boyfriend was my roommate 2 for years in college. They've been dating a little less than three.
I knew her before him, and she is the one who introduced us (she started dating him a month later). He's a good friend but I still resent him to this day for getting to her before me. Not that I ever had a chance. He was a volleyball star at our college and I'm just a scrawny fucking loser and I hate it. I don't think she ever even considered me in a sexual way.
Now I'm stuck living at home because I can't find a job, and he's working and just moved into his own place, and she stays with him all the time, which kills me because I go hang out there a lot, and leave alone while they sleep together.
Worst part? He's my only guy friend. I hate him because I can't try to take her from him.
I'll never get to be with the love of my life. My only guy friend is my worst enemy. My life sucks and is going nowhere.
I have to tell her how I feel...otherwise I might as well just kill myself. | |
Anyway, you'll never know unless you tell her. She might say " Oh holy crap what took you so long? I have always wanted to have a pasty , sour smelling, nerd with no job who looks like his face took a grenade for the team! yeah...I'm ready to drop my professional athlete with a 13 inch cock for a casper the ghost look alike with a thumb size meatwhistle!"
...then you can laugh at your friend and dance around screaming "Losers finish first losers finish first!!!!"
Then, when there's a tragic tsunami off the coast of Napaj, and opposite world blows up, you'll have achieved your dream and gone to the opposite of heaven!
!ffo kcuf
try drinking ensure to gain weight. or drink milk. the full fat milk. that really makes you gain weight. morning, noon, and night. avoid sweets and chocolate and junk food to clear up your acne. and wash your face with a cleanser 2x a day, morning and at night.
congrats on being a college grad. keep trying to get a job. i am from nyc too and we're luckier than other parts of the country cuz there are more jobs here. sure, it's not as great as it used to be but you have a higher chance of getting a job as a college grad living in nyc. so keep trying and you will eventually get a job.
good luck.
Oxford, UK.
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