Heres my life in a nutshell. Grew up in an upper middle class home with an insane father and a mother who never shut up. My life was pretty normal I guess until I got to middle school, one day my friend Brandon was in class looking at a porno magazine and I was winking at him mimicking jerking off until some fat red headed bitch who sat next to me said hey "this kid is jerking off!"
From that point from 7th grade to 12th grade I was known as the kid who got caught jerking off in class. I used to watch these columbine kids kill their teachers and peers and get pissed that they were such pussys to do it and here my life is so much worse and I don't do shit. I got beat up and teased every day, do you know what its like to be introduced with "Hey, aren't you the kid who got caught jerking off in class?" With every person I met from age 11-19... So high school was hell I hid I cried I was fat I was ugly I wanted to melt, die, kill myself, something.
Then I graduated high school chain smoked and drank diet soda, lost weight realized i was actually really good-looking except for my underbite, got a chin implant became cute didn't know how to deal with it been dating a great girl for 6 years that I treat like shit because I'm miserable.
So heres where I am now
I'm a genius and no one knows it
The only thing I've ever been good at is Starcraft.
I'm addicted to opiates, suboxone, and benzos and withdrawl every fucking day.
I have OCD so I can never sleep or live a normal life,I also have ADD as well, so for those of you who bitch about having ADD stfu OCD is way worse.
And I guess the worst of all is my PTSD i developed from having several encounters with a demon growling in my face and fun stuff like that. Forever I will never sleep and remember those beautiful yellow eyes and that wolf like scream torturing me forever and ever.... and did I mention I'm in love with someone I'll never have? No point getting into that story because thats 90% of men. I'm a fucking loser and I wish I was dead.