I am a 17 year old female who seems to be the only one in the highschool pond that feels like this time of my life (supposedly the "best years") is a joke. I had one boyfriend. One. I am a romanticist, so when we started dating, I pledged all loyalty to him and made him my center. Of course, as highschool males usually go, his intentions were a bit more shallow. He took complete advantage of me, neglected me, and reduced me to a slobbering mess in the girls locker room when I finally realized where his heart was; in his pants. I didn't get over him. My friends were distant. I never talked with my family. The whole experience left me broken. I got back with him a second time. He cheated on me. I got over him and hate him to this day. I went through a series of random hookups that only made me hate myself. Then, I lost my closest friends due to the fact that they started talking to my infamous ex. Eventually, I became close with a new girl who I hold near and dear to my heart. Recently, I started talking to a new boy. I really loved the idea of him. I loved everything he said to me. I knew it was just a practiced lie, but I loved the idea of something so exciting. We hung out and he was pretty much my ex in another form. I am not interested in a buddy to mess around.
So, this leads me to my conclusion. I am convinced I will be forever alone. I wallow in my pity every day. This recent "breakup" hurt beyond belief. Just the rejection and falseness of someone who was such a bright hope kills me. I lost so much and had to acustom myself to nights alone. My phone was never on, I knew no one would call. Then this boy came and I was beyond happy. That happy that makes you think, yeah this is how it is supposed to be. Well thats gone. So life sucks and I am alone. Just crap. | |
U're not alone. read some self motivation books, it will helps to raise ur self esteem.
You're only 17. Geez kid, you're scaring me! You do know that you have your WHOLE life ahead of you to meet a nice boy? At 17, I was crazy about boys too, and still am. But you are young, and who knows what the world has in store for you? Focus on other things rather than a relationship. Stop acting so GROWN UP! you will only be 17 once! So enjoy your youth- hang out with your friends, go places, do things, and have fun!!!
The right boy will come along at the right time- so don't stress so much:)
Graduate
Then find the love of your life-
Cursed
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