I'm Logan, im a 16 year old guy, and well.. ive never really written one of these before. Before anyone reads this, i'm not a whinny social outcast, im just an average teenager, kind of popular, playing baseball, and get okaay grades. im just on the edge and need to get some stuff out. Man, i've been a soft romantic all my life, but never really had a true relationship. Last summer the girl i dont think i couldve lived without (Brooke) told me she loved me, then school started and she liked a guy who had a girl for 8 months, kissed her every day in front of my girl, and decided she was the best fallback girl. Little did he know, she was perfect and no one, not even me deserved to be with her. But this story isnt about Brooke, it's about Sami.
As you could have predicted, Brooke left a nasty toll on me. But today, we're best friends and i wouldnt change that. But while recovering from Brooke, i meet Sami. A milirary girl whose just moved to our island from North Dakota. She was great, a perfect angel. She had the greatest insight on everything, and could always look past anybodys differences and see their beautiful souls underneath. She was the first girl i really loved. So what happened? well i have to back track again.
Also during the summer i get a first job at a sports store, and meet a good friend named Danny, a regular man whore but he's good at it. He'd just moved here too, and was my best friend. So January comes around, and literally, in a mattter of 1 day without any warning, or her toning down flirting, she changed interest into my best friend, who acts today like nothings wrong. They're not together but, he drives her to school everyday, i dont know its literally killing me
If i had to sum this up, it's knowing your best friend stabs you in the back, while the girl you love distracts you. Today, well today was bad. Every time Dannys not around, she tries to act cute and kind of flirt, but not in the bitchy two-timing way. in a really cute, adorable way. Today, Danny leaves to get on stage for drama rehearsal while me and Sami are sitting in the audience. She tries grabbing my phone, saying hi, saying she loved me, and i couldnt take it. Usually id act fine back because, hell hows it hurting you? But i realize i care about people, theyre not just faces to me. If i talk to her, i care more and caring just makes it worse when i see her with Danny. I had to, for the first time, be cold to her. i just said 'just stop and leave'. turns out she was really hurt and left.
Im not asking for sympathy guys, im just asking for you to be cool and allow me to tell this entire story. Im just, im on the edge and i dont know if ill get down. This isnt me, i never really admit to caring about anything because if i admit it to myself, i just get to attatched. The reality is this made an optomistic teenager believe life is just a lie.
From the words of Vinny: 'You never want to let a girl get you down but, at the same time, you cant fight what youre feeling sometimes and it fucking sucks' | |
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