LIFE SUCKS

Tired...

I'm not good at essay writing; I'll just type what comes to mind.

We can never fully enjoy life. The most fun things are considered 'immoral' or 'unhealthy'. For instance, I (secretly) love men. But I can't have gay sex because... it's disgusting and unclean and (seemingly) painful -- and I do believe all that! But.. these damned thoughts make up my most powerful sexual fantasies. Why!? Why have I been brought into a world with all this 'capability' and so little 'ability'?

I mean, everything's a health risk; ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING gives you cancer! After learning the hazards of 'red-meat'... Ahhh....!!! Life is hopeless. (-_-) And it isn't just disease; there's cruelty, poverty, greed, etc. I'm sick and tired of it all. Why are we even born? Thus far, the only reason I've deduced is.. TO DIE! "There must be something more to life! There's just got to be", I keep saying to myself. "God?! Are you listening? I need your help!", I keep screaming. I'm growing weary; I'm falling apart...

I can't imagine what I'd do if I lost the only person in the world I love... But it will happen -- eventually, She will die (if I don't first) -- and I will have to accept the reality that all that I love -- all that everyone loves -- will wither and die.

LIFE SUCKS.