The Scum of the Earth | Posted by Jokulhaups at March 20, 2012 | Tags: 2012 March |
I'm 22 and have been in community college for 4 years now. I need to get 3 more courses done to finish but this is my big complicated problem: I can't get any more money from federal loans because I usually fail two of my courses every semester the others I usually get an A or B in. Four courses really is too much for me at one time, and I'm sorry I fell into the pressure of needing to take four at a time just so I wouldn't look like a joke and please my parents. One course I've failed 3 times now is Public Speaking because I'm pretty shy and intimidated by a large amount of people I don't know. My family is doing pretty well financially but they do not know my situation. I told them I'm ready to move on to a 4-year institution and will be applying for graduation. I've been trying to get a part time job within the past 3 months with no luck. I don't know what will happen when they find out I've lied to them. My sister thinks i'm a piece of shit already and if this gets out I will never hear the end of it from her. Aside from the fear of them knowing, I think they would be willing to pay the rest of my way through community college. At the same time, I don't think I deserve anything more from my parents. I've lied to them countless times about my school progress and my current situation. I have no job and they are supporting me with room and board. There's also a family vacation planned for the week of my birthday with everything booked and payed (not because of my birthday though, it just so happened to be an open week.) I should be thrown on the street for the rats to eat. This dark secret has been haunting me for months now and I'm not sure if I can bare it any longer. I feel the right thing to do is to tell them but then I will be a piece of shit in my family's eyes if I'm not already. | |
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i think you should tell your parents the truth and tell them how bad you feel about what you have done. trust me, the truth will set you free. creating a web of lies is just one disaster after one not to mention the guilt and regret you feel. it eats you alive. it's always better to tell the truth. i am sure they will understand and if they know that you are looking for a part time job to correct your mistakes that makes you look very responsible. so fess up and keep trying to get a part time job. you only have 3 more courses to go. gotta finish it after all that you have been through. good luck.
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