My life sucks so bad. Lately I wish I could just die, but I don't want to hurt my family and I am afraid of going to hell. Ever since I got a job when I was 14 I have been a hard worker, working while going to school and getting good grades. I have barely any friends because I was always working or with my boyfriend who I started dating when I was 14 who I am now engaged to, but I could write an entire novel of how our relationship has sucked and how he has hurt me in the past. There is a big chance I might not be able to have kids because of medical problems. I currently have no job because I quit my job because everyone there was the devil and it smelled like shit because they would not fix the sewage problem ( was a restaurant by the way), thinking I would get some sort of part time job right away I didnt, but I eventually did get a retail job but they called me today and told me I was supposed to be there when I had no idea because they never called me when they said they were going to. So I didnt go because I don't want to work for someone who bitched me out when I did not do anything wrong. I am still in school graduating this year, although I doubt i will get a good job with my major. If I don't I have to go to graduate school and rack up more student loans and credit card debt. I am completely broke. Just took my car in because it was not starting again for the 3rd time after paying over 1000 to fix it. Tried to get a new car but need a cosigner but no one to cosign it for me which brings me to my family which is dysfunctional and messed up, could write another novel on them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So I have no car, no money, no job, a dysfunctional family, i'm ugly, in debt, working on a pointless college degree, but I have been working so hard my whole life!!!!!!!!How did this happen!!!!!!!!! I feel like everything I try to do never works out and everything is so hard to come by!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I people are constantly mean and nasty and when I drive people have road rage and ride my ass and it pisses me off even more!!!! I just want to scream!!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay I just read this and laughed and I hope you do too
23 year old white female | |
If your family is disfunctional and you don't want to be like them, you don't have to. You have to make a dission on what you really want in life. There is nothing really bad going on with your life,it's all about choices. Why stay with a boyfriend who hurts you?
Make a choice! You are a very young person and you have a long life a head of you.
Seriously, this is what happens when you attend school but do not actually learn anything. In high school, I studied Auto Mechanics and computer programming! I was able to get a good paying job and also fix my own car.
Unfortunately, all good jobs are being outsourced and those jobs that are not outsourced are being filled by illegal aliens or aliens with work visas.
"people are constantly mean and nasty and when I drive people have road rage"-this is not a problem for me. I live in Los Angeles and travel on the 405 every day. If anybody gets too close, I just pull out my Smith & Wesson Model 500 and fire a few shots at their windshield. People back off fast. (Note: never shoot at police cars, police get a real bad attitude about that.)
you have faith as a grain of mustard seed, you will say to your
mountain, "MOVE!" and it WILL move... and NOTHING will be
impossible for YOU!
- Matthew 17:20
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I think the key is for you to do well in ur studies even if u change ur degree it will be longer but worth it. Try get a job and save as much u can! get that bf to start saving too!! and in 3 or 4 years ull be in a possition to get a home :) im 23 and i walk or get bus to work. its healthier and less money so why nt try it out? go back to driving wen ur financially steady. as i said in 23 my plan is to save for the next 3 years then get my own home with my bf who is jobless bt in college. I do hope he gets a job soon because he is soo lazy a doesnt do a thng. xx
nobody will ever have as direct and powerful a result in your life as you yourself will.
pull yourself out of your depression and take charge of your life before it is too late. only you can do it and the world is a tough place, and if you don't make things right for yourself, no one will.
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