I am lost. There is no one around me who I can talk to or to hold. I have no best friends let alone a very close friend. The ones that I do have are superficial or just shows a friendly smile. My family doesn't seem like they are related to me. The love i am shown is only skin deep and seems like nothing more then that. There seems to be no one out there who understands me or even tries to. I can't talk to anyone or even enjoy a simple laugh with them. I feel as though disappearing right now would be less important then paint drying. Yet I still keep going through life with a fake smile, I try to be happy about the little things and see the bright side of everything.
Yet I just can't bare this loneliness inside myself. Knowing that true love is only a mere illusion and that the closest people have come to it is in animes. I wish life was an anime, so everyone can write their own future and find true love. I seem to be blabbing on which is a bad habit of mines but then again its hard for anything to make sense in this world.
To have electronics as the only thing to care the most about me in this world might seem sad but it gives me comfort. For now I will try to believe the smiles and words I make everyday. I will try my best to keep searching for that one wish of mines. For that person who is out there that can understand me. That wants to understand me.
God, how much I wish for that hand to reach out to help me. The ears to sit and listen to me. The arms to reach out and embrace me. I just want to smile with a true smile from the bottom of my heart. | |
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