I'm a 23 year old male, working and going to school. I am a musician as well to help keep me level, to an extent. My uncle had recently had a stroke a few days ago and underwent brain surgery. He doesn't remember who I am and can't make out his words. I live in Chicago btw. I owe a lot in student loans as well. Your not the only one man. Sometimes I feel like quitting school, sometimes I don't. But I still get up everyday and do the routine. I've been drinking a lot lately too which hasn't helped at all except make me feel I have something to hold onto. We are both young dude and we have to realize that life is only hell if we make it. I don't have a gf, but I constantly get hit on by girls at my work and school. I stopped the whole partying scene and sleeping with women who don't mean anything to me. I've been choking down these tears for the past few days since my uncle has been in the hospital. I live with my mom and she isn't working so all my money goes to the house payments and what I left over for dog food. I have two dogs. It seems like this all came down on me at once and I just want to explode. I lost so many good friends because I could not trust them. I turned to myself and yet it still feels like a burden is on my shoulders. I just think of all the negative things in my life now. Maybe tomorrow will be different but as of now i cant complete a song i've been trying to finish. I'm fed up with the way life is as of now and I think I need to just see the brighter side of suffering. My blood is boiling and I'm tryin my best to cope with things. YOUR NOT ALONE! Our generation is feeling the burden left from this economy. They tell us to go to college, get a job and find a girl we love. It all just doesnt fall into place like that. We all have our own struggles. STAY POSITIVE. I have no one to talk to as well, but through my music, which I cant finish at the moment. My prayers go out to you and I KNOW you'll see the light. Listen to some incubus or City and Colour their music always make me feel a little bit happier. Btw I work out everyday and am physically fit. Mentally I break down every once in while. This will be the last time for I am giving up drinking and smoking and changing my life around! | |
What instruments do you play, btw? Other than that, you're right with your decision to give up smoking and drinking, they're cancers and you're better off without 'em.
I really wish i could hear your music one way or the other. Good luck and Have a Good Life. :)
I relapsed again today since I had a drink with a coworker. I am still positive everyday, but there's still that voice in the back of my head telling me "Things Are Getting Worse". I play acoustic/sing. Life can be a lot worse, but I still wake up with a smile on my face:)
I relapsed again today since I had a drink with a coworker. I am still positive everyday, but there's still that voice in the back of my head telling me "Things Are Getting Worse". I play acoustic/sing. Life can be a lot worse, but I still wake up with a smile on my face:)
sorry I accidental put end instead world
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