I reall dnt know what to write.... m again manipulating things to write here.. coz i want everthing ... fuck me m so bad at writing also... i will try again... i think whatecver is happening wid me is coz i want it to be so, i want to be the saddest person dont know why , but then i am never happy, obvious it is
i watch movies alone, i prefer eating alone, i want to run from everone, i alwas pretend to my freinds, i am so busy coz i dnt want them around me, but fail to express directly on their face as i fear they will feel bad, i cant stop my tears coz i miss her so much, i tried suicide but sometimes my parents and other ppl who depend on me came in front of my eyes or else it was too high to jump from... i cnt 3even kill myself , i live alone, after she left i stopped studying and evrything is now hazy.
i dnt weant to go back to my old frens, and i find impossible to make new fremns : i am so pretentious, but i onl pretend so that the other person does not feel bad.... please help
how to love myself please teach me... :{
only alchohol helps me to sleep daily... but its not helping to get rid of my state, what is the meaning of life when the most precious and loveable thing leaves you walking away from you on there own foot , yes i made mistakes but realized after commiting them, but why such a big punishment!
it was all my fault but i was honest
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Life goes on and if you can love yourself, then you can be loved by another :-)
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