I have nothing but hatred for everone.
(yes i really do, naw only when i look at everyone else and seee what they have done and accomplished. proud of them)
I have anger management problems. Not normal ones though. Their quite strange. Sometimes I get so mad that I just sit there-- shaking, saying in my mind "God kill me now dammit!".
(hmm, i must admit that happens alot but i remind myself that i am ok)
I also tend to get really jealous of people sometimes. I admit it, I have serious issues.
(true true happens to most peolpe well thats what i tell myself but i know tis true)
most people tell me I have too much patience and often comment that they would burst long before I do.
(i guess that is good for the most part, plenty of patience..that is good if i say so myself*smiles*)
I know that I should probably try harder in life, and some of my problems are my own fault, but its just so hard. I see all these different people in this world, and no one seems to want to get along with each other. Most people seem to enjoy contributing to this endless cycle of hate and pain, which really makes me sad
(well, everyone goes through their own sort of pain and everyone suffers in their own way, right? so really, doesnt make me sad)
if he or she fails, they try again, no matter what, no matter how many times. And so I think to myself, why do I still do nothing. Or rather, why don抰 I change something. While knowing that talking about all of this will get me nowhere. And the dissatisfaction that I have with myself, why don抰 I change? Why am I still standing still, in the same place, repeating this over and over again. How low should I sink before I actually do something? I guess people like me realise things at the very end.
(uhhh.. i am trying at least still in school so theres plenty of time to do something, spend time with family and firends, badger them with questions aboout life and their life stories, then i realize i have it lucky then them...then anybody i guess.. *laughs* weeell, not THAT great but good nevertheless)
Every single one of you fuckers are nothing but dumbass pieces of shit. I'll never be fucking happy and I've accepted that but goddamn on a firey cross why do I have to be surrounded by fucking morons who don't know their dick from their elbow? putting on a fake little show for everyone, pretending to be happy, giving fake smiles to everyone. I felt like some pathetic puppet, saying what everyone wanted to hear. Really though, I was dying inside.I WISH I COULD JUST GET A GUN AND KILL EVERY ONE.
STUPID MOTHER FUCKERS!FUCKIN BURN IN HELL!
(woah!! calm down! man, thats what ur all thinkin right?*smiles* dont worry i never get mad at anyone even if nicole(my friend) talks behind my back i dont care but alyssa, emma, alysha and paige tell me to stand up to her and tell her off or whatever but hey, everyone talks behind others back not me though, it makes me feel guilty and i have to apologize*laughs* i hate to be angry)
I know I need to get away from these negative thoughts and go along with what I have now but I still cannot ignore the fact that the "volcano" will be erupt inside of me soon enough.(this again...umm, like i said plenty of patience and always forgive people too much)
thats it for now, well i think most of u are gonna post some rude comments like for example,
"You are a fucking moron dude. Just sayin. You sound like a broken record of fucktardation. you contradict yourself. you say you dont fuck with people you dont want friends or any shit like that but you want love. you are fucking idiot and I can only hope that you dont ever multiply because I would feel so sorry for any possible kids that you would ever create.you're obviously not going to find love when you have a I hate everything and everybody fuck you fuck this fuck every fucking thing in existance attitude. you're a fucking little cry baby"
whatever but hey i am nice and a bit too qieut9is that how u spell it) oh well bye and have a nice day oh another i am only 15 so take it easy with the rude comments... what the heck? go nuts it will be funny to read it!! *smiles and waves bye* bye!