I was around 4 when I was molested by my brother and then he brought his best friend along. Then my aunts boyfriend came along a few yrs later. When I was 11 my parents split and dad got a girlfriend who's father thought it was ok to mess with me(did i have a sign on my head that said "easy"). At 12 I started drinking ALOT and letting men use me so I felt loved.I was with men twice my age trying to fill a void but it's still there. I am now 37 and still can't stop drinking but someday I hope... After suicide attempts and my brother killing himself, I think that I may get over this.... someday | |
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Awe sweetie, I am so sorry to hear of your troubling past... Unfortunately all that pent up hurt and anger isn't going to disappear. I'd wager that drinking is your coping mechanism- and what you really need is therapy. Undoubtedly, you know this-
You don't have the power to change the past, but you DO have the power to change your future. Try to find help- talking can do wonders. Get things off your chest, come to terms with your hurt, and live a happier life.
Don't try to stop drinking on your own. Find support- AA, friends that don't drink, family. Trying to stop on your own- will be a tough battle and it's too easy to fall off the wagon when only YOU know that your on it!
Good luck kid-
You're young, change your life for the better-
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