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Still feeling down after she left me...

Posted by anonymous at March 31, 2012
Tags: 2012 March  Relationship

This story of mine is a little long, so I beg you to take your time and read it.
Before I start my story I apologize for mistakes you find in my typing, English is not my first language so please bear with it.
5 years ago when I was 17 I met a girl, she was 15.
I liked her but since I was too young it was nothing serious.
After so many efforts I could get her phone number and we became friends.
Gradually I started to like her and after 6 months of friendship I got my first kiss with her.
After that I deeply fell in love with her...
but things weren't going as expected.
Her father got a mission and they had to travel to another city located 590 km away from me.
It was hard so she decided to breakup with me...
I was depress, but after 1 week she returned to me and I thought that nothing had happened, so I started to love her more than before.
For 2 years we spent a long distance relationship, sometimes she had time to travel to my city and we had fun but she never stayed.
When 2 years finished, her father got another mission for another city located more than 900 km from me...
Again she decided to breakup with me because it was really difficult this time
but again she returned
Everything went smoothly till the last summer.
Last summer, suddenly she changed.
She said they're going to live forever in that city and she said that this time we seriously need to breakup.
She said terrible things to me such as: "I may be the best person for you, but you're not the best one for me" or "Don't try to understand my feelings, because you can't"
She blocked me on facebook, changed her phone number, deactivated her Gmail and she simply left me all alone...
I tried my best to get over it and after 3 months I was almost healed when...
Oh my God, I can't even type it
A friend of her told me that she has a new boyfriend now
I seriously wanted to die that night, I cried, I yelled at myself, I hit myself and those were the only things I could do.
Now I'm here...
Trying my best to get over the pain in my heart
The only thing I know is that I deeply love her
It's been 239 days since she left me but I still cry and I still dream of her when I sleep.
I know this problem of mine is not a big deal, and I know that many people have experienced something worse than me...
But I just don't know what to do
The picture of her kissing someone else in my mind is the worst torture I've ever experienced.
I just need some help
Thank you for reading my story


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By anonymous at 31,Mar,12 11:03

It must be tough, hang on there.
maybe you can't forget this, but must learn to how live with pain and sadness and don't give up !

By anonymous at 31,Mar,12 14:55

I fell in love with a boy on the backwoods roads of redneck Alabama: a place where gay love isn't allowed. Its been over a year and a half since I've seen him. He won't talk to me and ignores me continuously. Eventually: I hate to be rude, but you just need to get over it.

By anonymous at 31,Mar,12 15:18

You're young, you have your whole life ahead of you. I know that's a cliche, but it's true. Don't hang around and wait for her. Get yourself into the best physical shape of you're life. People say looks don't matter, but they're wrong, they matter a great deal. When you're in "head turning" physical shape, you'll have your pick of the ladies and you'll have confidence you can get through anything.

By Kamyar at 31,Mar,12 16:31

Thank you everyone
I'm really thankful that people care about others problems
I'll try my best
I promise

By anonymous at 31,Mar,12 21:20

Look forward only, don't look back. When one door closes another one will open for you, but you have to be willing to shut the door behind you and keep forging ahead. Life is a tough journey there's no doubt about it. Try to imagine as if you're experiencing a big storm in your life, what would you have to do in term of physical, emotional, and spiritual in order to stay alive once the storm is over. Get physically in good shape and stay emotionally strong. Good luck!

By anonymous at 31,Mar,12 22:40

get over yourself, you scumbag. Forget the filthy bitch and move on with your worthless life. we don't need a whiny piece of shit such as yourself around here so fuck off!
By inHisname at 01,Apr,12 21:58

what is with being so inconsiderate? why say that someone has a "worthless life" when you don't even know him? he is a human being and means as much as you and me. being so hateful drives people to suicide. please think about what you're posting and who it might affect before you press send.

By anonymous at 01,Apr,12 01:13

Don't be disheartened, clearly she did have feelings for you but she really couldn't decide and I think maybe she said those hurtful things Gordy and make you angry so you could sever the relationship clean and perhaps. Of suffer so much, unfortunately you are both young and chances are she may not realise that is how things work. I wasnt meant to be and it was good while it lasted, you've got to think like that, if you go out in the world you will find similar people and different people and your interests will be again ignited and after a while (depending on you) she will be a memory and the pain will no longer be there. Take a deep breath and say "today is a new day" :)

By anonymous at 01,Apr,12 02:44

Hahahahah! Oh she left and she wont come back. How old are you ten

By anonymous at 01,Apr,12 02:50

Dude your in your twenties u should be fucking sluts man YEAHHHHHHHH!!!

By justme at 01,Apr,12 12:52

Don't be sad. Things happen for a reason. It might be hard for you to see it now, but the break up was probably for the best.

Believe me, I know. I'm the girl in the long-distance relationship who keeps breaking up with the sweet boyfriend.

I don't know why I do it. Maybe because, if life drives you apart, then things are not meant to be.

With time it will get better. Try to forget her, stop counting the days. Focus on yourself. Love will come again.

By anonymous at 01,Apr,12 18:22

I had a very, very similar experience as you. I know how awful the feeling is. The feeling where your hearts it turning inside your chest and its making you nauseous. The feeling where you wish and pray to god that your brain stops thinking about it but you can't control it; almost as if you're addicted to the thoughts and addicted to hurting yourself by thinking about it.

It is bad. So if you're reading this original poster, please take solace in me telling you that you WILL get over it and it WILL get better. Only with time however. Right now you need to live through it. You need to feel the pain for it to make you a stronger man.

If ever you feel like you're losing it read my post and repeat to yourself that it will get back.

All the best.

By Kamyar at 02,Apr,12 04:32

Thank you man
Everyone here are really kind to me
I just don't know how to thank them
"Thank you" is all that I can say

By anonymous at 05,Sep,12 19:53

Hang in there man, you're young yet. I am 50 and had my heart broken so many times it's in the thousands. I will probably die alone. But you've got lots of time.

By harcy at 01,Nov,12 18:27

not much you can do really. best advice is to hang in there. i know its very easily said than done, but its your best option at this stage. im talking from experience as my fiancee left me and she is with someone else. been 8 months and i am still torn apart. i been tearing myself apart for so long that my body is literally slowly giving up. i been having daily nose bleeds a few times a day and having panic attacks

best thing i can say is you need to find something that will take your mind of her. anything productive. personally i started to study again. its keeping me focused on that and im getting better results than ever. playing sports and hanging out with friend will be extremely helpful as well.

you need to be strong and understand that it is her loss not yours. she gave up a guy that obviously loved her very much. just hang in there and keep away from things that will remind you of her.

all the best wishes

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