01. I hate the fact that people have a car and I don't
02. I hate the fact that people have a loving family and I don't
03. I hate the fact that people have there own website, and I don't
04. I hate the fact that my Dad took the $10k from my savings account when I was younger.
05. I hate the fact that my father went and had a 3rd kid, and didn't finish taking care of the 2 he had. Gives the kid everything he needs, wants.
06. I hate the fact that my mother put me on SSI and can't get a job now because I've been on it for too long, no references, no proof of work history even though I did work in the past.
07. I hate the fact that my mother took the settlement check from SSI and spent it on herself and her new husband.
08. I hate the fact that I used to get picked on at the bus stop for having a design on my shirt, or stripes on my shit.
09. I hate the fact that most people get to go to College, but I can't because I wasn't very smart in school. I'd never make it in College.
10. I hate the fact that people drive by me, and saw me walking to work, and never offered to give me a ride.
11. I hate the fact that kids get to live with mommy & daddy until they are ready to go out on there own, have saved up enough money to get a good grip on the real world.
12. I hate the fact that women cheat on men, because they need to fill the hole they have. From what I've seen, women cheat on men more.
13. I hate the fact that a woman would rather go with a black man than a white man because of the size of dick they have.
14. I hate the fact that some people are born rich, because mommy & daddy is or was rich.
15. I hate the fact that my father was drunk all the time, and used to beat on my mother just for the hell of it.
16. I hate the fact that my father used to beat me, and my mother would get in front of him to protect me. It should have never been like that.
17. I hate the fact that most younger females never paid any attention to me, even if I was or am a nice guy.
18. I hate the fact that you got married at a normal age, and I can never get married.
19. I hate the fact that you found someone who loves you, and stays by your side.
20. I hate the fact that I used to stand in a corner for not doing my chores the right way, and used to puke my guts out from false guilt.
21. I hate the fact that my step father pointed a gun at me when I got home from school for joking with my friends during lunch by making my hand into a gun. There were cop killers in the 9mm.
22. I hate the fact that my father killed my moms dog, because the dog was on a zip line, and the tents were in line with the zip cord, and the dog ripped the tents. He stood by the dog, and pointed the gun down, and shot him. Then buried the dog in the back yard.
21. I hate the fact that my father forced my mother into a relationship that she never wanted to be in, married her, had kids. Now look what happened.
22. I hate the fact that my father tried to suffocate my mother when she was laying in the hospital bed pregnant with me, tried to kill her. He couldn't stand the sound of her in pain.
23. I hate the fact that your parents have left you something in the will, and my father and mother wont do that, because I'm retarded and on SSI.
24. I hate the fact that my Father with his new wife, "she's dead now btw", with my half brother went to Disney every year, and never took me.
25. I hate the fact that they went again, but this time, without my step mother, my dad, sister, my brother went to Disney, and didn't take me. Why wouldn't they..? THEY DON'T CARE, that's why.. I'm a looser. I'm retarded. I don't have a job like my sister.
26. I hate the fact that my sister has a job & I don't
27. I hate the fact that my father has a BRAND NEW, Truck, House, and he never earned it. His Millionaire father left him $1M+
28. I hate the fact that he never gave me any of the money because if SSI ever found out about it, I'd loose my SSI, WRONG ASSHOLE, WRONG, you didn't give me any of the god damn money because your selfish, and could care less about me. But you give my sister money for college and give my brother money for Dunkin Donuts, etc. etc. etc.
29. I hate the fact that I love Mechanical/Electrical Engineering and can't go to school for it.
30. I hate the fact that my father gave me a cigarette, and said here, smoke.. Then when I go over to visit, which hardly happens anymore, there's a major problem when I ask for a cigarette, or to pick me up a pack of cigarettes.
31. No, but he sure as hell has absolutely no problem buying paintballs and nice paintball guns for my brother and him. To shoot the money out of a gun and hit people with money. Midas well be.. There's no difference. Why can't I have some money dad? Why can't you buy me a pack of smokes when you come and get me, to come over there?
32. Why did my 62 year old girl friend have to buy me a 2nd Gen i7 Laptop, and when you found out about it, you took my brother to BestBuy and baught him the ASUS Laptop I said was the best. You used my information against me, and got him the laptop. I got one too, but because I'm smarter than him, I researched for 2 weeks, and found the same kind of specs but unlike him paying $1,299.99 for the ASUS, my 62 year old gf only had to pay $889.
33. I hate the fact that a older man, "resident", was messing with my cable wires in the basement at a boarding home, or house with rooms in it, and I got arrested. Long story. Gotta go to trial in June, WOW !!! FUN FUN FUN !!
34. I hate the fact that I have to go to trial in June for beating the guy up, even though I walked away, and he had a stick, etc. etc. BULLSHIT ! The system isn't perfect !!!
35. I hate the fact that the only female that likes me, or cares about me, or will not cheat on me, is fucking 62 years old, I'm 29 btw.
36. O do you got a car, money, a Job..? Next !! That's what females do. Must be the shitty world we live in.
37. I hate the fact that people disrespect the Windows OS. Because they fear Viruses. LOL.. I'm using windows right now, Do I have any viruses.. NO !! Use the fucking computer the right way, and things will be fine.
38. I hate the fact that All the new movies and Tv shows have a Mac in them, YES THEY DO. It's fucking bullshit. maybe they like showing people the Apple logo on the back on the computer or some shit, idk.. Windows is more user friendly. More freedom to do what you want with the machine. I have Deep Freeze Installed Btw..
39. I hate the fact that people don't realize that it costs $300 for a developers license for Mac/Apple and people could just as easy write malicious applications or software for that OS. Yep, VIRUS. Undetectable Virus, Malicious Software. Spyware. etc.
40. I hate the fact that I have to wait for stupid cars to go by before I can walk across the street, sometimes, it's like a fucking circus, CARS CARS CARS, I wish they'd all disappear. Get the fuck out of my way when I'm trying to go to the store, or take care of business.
41. I hate the fact that we will die one day.
42. I hate the fact that there's no time machine to go and sit down and have a little talk with myself when I was younger. OMG !! HOW MUCH DO I WISH. WOW !
43. I hate the fact that my dog hung himself, because of me.
44. I hate the fact that I used to have to rake a 1/2 an acre of land every single day for one of my chores. They were little leaves on big trees. pain in the fucking ass, especially when I got sand mixed with the leaves. and bagged the leaves, OMG, those bangs either ripped, or took me a million years to drag to the end of the yard so the garbage men could take them..
The main reason, why my life sucks, is because I'm on SSI, and have been on it for too long, and can never get a job because I have no references. That's one of the main reasons why I'm so angry, and why I'm so upset with everything.
I do love certain things, Engineering & Science. WOW !! How Cool. But other than that, and this sweet laptop I'm using, Life isn't very great for me.
I did 8 Months in jail, and Never want to go back, I mainly sit in front of a Laptop, and don't bother anyone. Unless, like the dude messing with the cable wires goes and fucks with my shit, then I have to come out of my apartment, and see what the problem is.. Last time I did that, I got arrested. Because he was mouthing off to me, and told me to step outside little boy. I was like fuck you mother fucker, you really don't want to do that, you'd loose. So I walked to the other side of the house, and sat down on my 62 year old Gf's steps, he comes over, with the stick in his hand, and says, "So, you wanna go.." I was like Fuck off dude, get the fuck away from me, you're gonna loose. Yep, I beat the crap out of him, head butted him, put his head between my legs and gave him 1 good punch to the side of the ribs, let his head out, and cocked back my arm and gave him 1 good punch to the side of the face. DO NOT FUCK WITH ME. I'm so sick and tired of people fucking with me, I'm done playing with people. I head butted him, because when I got up, from sitting on the steps, I tapped him lightly on the chest then he came at me, and put me against the house, hitting me on the head with the stick with the key to the basement, I was like ouch ouch ouch, I quickly thought to myself, and came up with, "Headbutt to the face mo fucker" that got him dazzed and put a little room between me and him, that's when I bent him down, and put his head between my legs, and did what I already explained above. Was it self defense? Did he deserve what he got? Was he authorized to mess with the cable wires in the beginning? NO, But I ended up getting arrested, and he told his son and his sons friend to beat me up, That's a gang assult mother fucker, when two or more people are in the act of wanting to beat you up, or fight you. He was there too, plus another dude, so grand total, 4 guys wanted me to step outside in the back and talk, BULL SHIT, I was like NO FUCKING WAY !! you guys must think I'm fucking retarded or something, rocks in my head, I'm not going out there. Called the Cops, cops came. They told them to leave me alone. Cops told me to go inside, I did.. They left, came back outside, OMG, guess who's cars comes into the driveway, The two boys who he told that I kicked his ass, and told them to kick my ass. I ran inside, and called the cops, came outside, they were leaving again, cops came, They arrested me, because they filled a complaint on me. WHY !!!! WHY !! It's bullshit. The System isn't right, and if I go to fucking jail in June, ... I'm not gonna say anything, but I promise, they wont get away with false prosecution.
I have more to talk about, but there's really no point in talking about this shit.. there's not a god damn thing I can do.
I've been delt some odd fucking cards, and I want a re-deal, I want to start over again, I want the life I was ment to have.