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Posted by anonymous at April 8, 2012
Tags: Abuse  2012 April  Juvenile problems

I'm only 16. When I was younger, several close friends of my father decided it'd be fun to touch me inappropriately. To rape me. I told my mother. And she told my dad, but he didn't believe us. No, he got angry and accused us of lying, because his precious friends would never do anything to his only daughter. Not only that, but he believed that beatings were an appropriate form of punishment. By belt, by hand, by hanger. I'm Asian, so you know, any grade lower than an A was enough for me to receive punishment. If I couldn't understand something my father was trying to teach me, I received punishment. If I made any little mistake or voiced my opinions, I was punished. And nobody did anything to stop him. I've always felt restricted. I'm not allowed to do anything, to go anywhere. Because I'm a girl, and I needed to stay home and be good. And it's not just me. My little brother, he was only ten. He tried to jump out a window and kill himself, but it didn't work. He just wants to be a good son, but everything he does is never enough for my dad. And my mother, she's going crazy because all my dad ever does is put her down and tell her how horrible of a mother she is. But she keeps trying to be such a good wife to him. No matter how much he hurts her and controls her, she just keeps trying to make him happy. I hate him so much. My mother is fine. He just has to have everything so damn perfect. But he never tries to fix anything himself, he always just makes us. And if it's not to his requirements, then he blames us. For everything. I've tried to kill myself twice. They don't know about it. They don't know anything about it. Because I'm the oldest, and I need to take care of them. To show them everything's okay. It's so hard, though, to keep going, when I hate everything so much. I have to stay alive so I can take care of my family. And I feel so sorry for my dad too, though. Because he's done so much for us, just as much as he's hurt us. As much as he's hard on others, he's ten times harder on himself.


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By anonymous at 08,Apr,12 18:31

Im really sorry if u ever need to talk. I meen im 16 years old ima alone my dad messed everything up in my life. You can talk to me.Names zach if u wana know more just ask


By anonymous at 08,Apr,12 19:30

I think that you are so brave and just down right STRONG! Believe it or not, you are so damn wonderful Your brother is very lucky to have you as well as your mother and your father. You put your family before yourself and even though you wanted to give up so many times you did not. You have understood the concept that suicide is never the answer and that itself is wonderful. Even though this is hard to do or things get harder you must not give up EVER. You must teach the same things you have learned to your brother. Sometimes asking others for help WILL help you. If things get worse you MUST ask for help. Someone that you can trust. If you do not know anyone, then just post it here. You are not alone. I have FAITH in you. You are a wonderful daughter and sister. However, I think that you should DEFINITELY tell some one about those men touching you. If you do not do anything about it, things MAY go out of hand. Fast. I am rooting on for you! Keep fighting! I would love it if you could keep me updated too, thanks! BTW I am a 16 yr old girl too.


By anon at 08,Apr,12 19:36

Zach, I hope things work out for you too. If you wanna talk Im always here. If of course you want too. Good luck with everything for you. You have to try your best since I can relate. My life is pretty much messed up too, but I am coping and trying my best to move on. Your not alone man, trust me.Well try your best. If it helps, you should first find a starting point and go from there. Hope this smile somehow cheers you up :)


By at 08,Apr,12 21:14

ahh haa, so solly to hear dat from coming you. I tink diz myte be my daughter, yung pune tang. I going to beat yo mamma fat ho. your brother one hung lo very angry u use all soy sauce!! yu no good. ahh soooo.
By anonymous at 08,Apr,12 23:15

fuck off faggot
By anonymous at 08,Apr,12 23:51 Fold Up

This 16 yr. old asian kid is obviously 10 times smarter than your dumb ass. Also, not all asians are chinese you ignorant poofter. Give the modern human civilization a favor and throw your worthless, antedated ass over a cliff.
By anonymous at 09,Apr,12 00:15 Fold Up

To ching chong chow, we all think that you are very very and one more time very immature! This is a serious matter that only emotionally mature adults could comprehend. We would appreciated if you could stay away and never revisit this site again until you become a mature person.


By anonymous at 09,Apr,12 01:30

Can I come down and beat the fuck out of you dad? He's an abusive asshole don't feel sorry for him. Take some martial art classes if you can or just learn it watching youtube and one day kick your dad's ass. Literally just tear him apart and don't ever let him put a hand on your mother. Beat him up so much so that he feels weak, trust me that's the only way.


By anonymous at 09,Apr,12 03:45

Traditional asian parents are the worst. If you do bad in school or aren't 100% obedient you'll get beating or disowned. It was like my parents made it a game to see how creative they can be at re-inventing things to beat me with. Oh look telephone wires can be dual use! You better watch out, next time you do the slightest thing that we don't like we'll test this on you! Lets see if I can pick you up over my head and throw you across the room!

Don't worry girl, you're 16. Start making a plan now on how you'll move out once you turn 18. You can get a part time job at 16 and start saving now. Look into grants and financial aid for college and choose a degree in a needed profession so you won't have to move back home after you graduate.


By at 09,Apr,12 04:44

I'm sorry you have to go through it. Your dad is an abusive mongrel and he needs to be corrected for such mean demeanor. Anon above is right, try getting into martial arts and practice hard so you'll know how to defend yourself when he tries to beat you again. You shouldn't tolerate such viscious treatment and learn to fight for yourself. Get a part-time job as a cashier at some food court near your place while studying. And when i say studying i mean it. If you fuck up at school, you'll go nowhere and be nobody and your life will be twice as hard as it is at the moment. You're only 16, wow, so fresh and young. Anyway, you'll have 2 years left to be 18, as i said earlier, work and save up so you can pay your future college education. Don't give up. With time life will get better. I'm asian, too btw, if that matters. :)


By anonymous at 09,Apr,12 05:08

seriously have some guts and scold ur father or slap him up or perhaps u do that when u get older and he doesnt dare to do anything to u. do report those rape to the police and leave ur father. he will wake up. he doesnt deserve to be ur dad. just leave


By anonymous at 09,Apr,12 18:30

Your dad doesn't deserve a family. You, your mother and your little brother deserve a better father.

He doesn't believe that you have been raped. That's just- ...
I just have no words for it. It makes my blood boil.

It doesn't matter what your father had done for you, he is a selfish bastard. He doesn't deserve any form of love.

After being raped... UUURGH @__@
I'd love to abuse him.


By anonymous at 17,Apr,12 21:54

Just give your dad a chance, he sounds like a very reasonable man. I think that you may be the problem, having sex with his friends!? What kind of daughter would do that to her father. If your crazy mother wants to make him happy, she needs to give up the pussy at least two times a day or suck him off. Admit to your self that you are a no good whore and life will get better ;)
By anonymous at 19,Apr,12 08:17

Please never do us all a favor, NEVER visit this site again.
By anonymous at 20,May,12 03:26 Fold Up

grow up shitbag.
By Madame Cherry at 03,Aug,13 00:02 Fold Up

She didn't have sex with his friends,his friends raped her.I think you are either really stupid,have ADHD,or both.And you know what?
I'm a fucking psycho,a REAL psycho.Her mother is no where near crazy.
I have a entire two journals literally filled with death threats.
Goodbye,future victim.


By anonymous at 20,May,12 03:35

You need to get help, real help not internet hobby psychiatrist. You'r farther also need to seek professional help. If he won't on his own,then get someone to make him. Talk to someone before it's to late, a teacher a counselor, the police or DHS if you have to. People don't change unless they want to, and it sounds like he doesn't see himself as having a problem. I went through simulare circumstances with my own family. Not the rape stuff, but treating them like shit and expecting them to be perfect. Blaming them for all my short commings. I didn't even know it was a problem untill my wife made seek help. This is not going to go away on it's own, and it's not going to get better untill your family comes to conclusion that you all have problems and need help dealing with those problems. Please speak up, no one can help you if you
stay silent.


By anonymous at 04,Jun,12 17:02

learn karate and beat his ass trust me its the only way


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