Currently I am on Medical Leave due to heavy depression. I am under the depression medication and sleeping disorder medication. I have never been on a sick more than 3 days in last 10 years. I am currently work as a senior technical position in the one of the top 100 companies in Canada over 8 years. I was a happy and productive employee. Last year I have move to my present job. 2 people on my team and my manager is fully responsible of my current situation. I am mentally physically and emotionally sick. The main reason was my poor English and other 2 persons reporting to my manager about me all the time. In the other words back stabbing.
I am an immigrant to this great country and living here over 14 years. My manger told me various times my English is bad and poor. This were happening in past 12 months. Also every time I work with other 2 person, they are reporting to my manager. One day my manager call me to his desk and ask me to sit down beside him and he told very loud, my English is very poor. he ask me to write a sentence in his computer. I was very shocked and very upset. I know all the people around my work area were heard. I also admit I did mistakes in my job. That because I did not had a proper training regarding the subject matter. I have ask the manager about the taining and he told me on the job training is the best. My job is mission critical system support and do require lots of training.
Long story short, After this incident he has reported to my HR department. On day I had a meeting with my Manager and HR manager. I have told I am an immigrant to this country. After that I was so upset and very emotional and could not perform my job. I am scared and emotional and no interest what so ever to go back to work. I am class A workaholic person. I am married and I have 2 young children and I am 48 years old. my background is engineering and IT.
Currently I am taking counselling and regular visits to my family doctor and psychologist. Their conclusion is this work place discrimination. My Doctor told me I am too sick to work. He ask me to take leave of absence at least 8 to 10 weeks. Because he knows me for last 14 years. I don't drink, I don't smoke. This is my own writing, you may also notice my English is not very good. But I am very good with the the Technical knowledge. I am good with conversations and not with the grammar. I have over 10 years experience in IT systems. My manger also send through the email saying I have very poor English. Previously no one has never said like this. Incident happen was very humiliating to my self.
My life is really sucks. Some one please read this and give me some advise. I have no intention to go back to the same team and work, because I am too stressed to work with the same people. My company is a great company.
This is a great forum and I saw this forum and please help me.
Don
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My family doctor and psychologist were concluded the same, racial discrimination in the work place and that leads to server depression.
Thank you all and I truly appreciate it. If you think anything more please advice me.
Don
What they are doing at your job is indeed bullying. Yelling it that loud. Your boss deserves a punch in the face!
Humiliating you like that! It's unbelievable how horrible humans can be to each other.
Don't let a bunch of idiots drag you down.
You made a few mistakes because you didn't have enough training. Go through the training and apply for the same function at another company (good luck! Considering the wonderful economy).
That your English is horrible is bullcrap. It's fine.
Straighten your back, you did nothing wrong.
I never swear, talk back and I am quiet person. So people taking advantage out of me.
Thank you for the advice.
Don.
Your English is fine.
You have 2 children. Live for them.
How to beat depression easily?
Remember you're just an organism. Diffrenet organism develop different brains/central systems. Our is so good that we store long term memory and have wider understanding. Always remember, that job/society/family/cities/shopping-malls/... are just invented by us. That you are just an organism. I don't know how to explain what I'm saying but try to understand you're just a product of different reactions and different molecules.
If you look at world from this point of view everything (including your workmates) becomes irrelevant. It may make you want to kill yourself at the beginning but with time you will become interested in life around you from a different, scientifical point of view.
Thank you kindly,
Don
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