LIFE SUCKS

I want Voluntary Painless Euthanasia. I can’t bear the physical and resulting emotional agony anymore.

I want Voluntary Painless Euthanasia. I can’t bear the physical and resulting emotional agony anymore.

I’m a 25 year old female, renting with my best mate. I'm not too skinny, I'm not too fat. I feel like crap as I am in agony 24/7. I was born with a blessed (sarcasm) sciatica, bad back, disk degeneration (disks tare and break) and bad knees caused by flat feet (my knees formed incorrectly due to my flat feet, so the bones/cartilage rub together). This is how I feel: Think of being stabbed along your back and down your legs and behind your knee caps with a jagged knife and twisting as you stab. THAT'S WHAT I HAVE 24/7. How the heck can I NOT feel like crap. How can I NOT be depressed. To top it all off, I’m allergic to almost everything, including pain relief. Unfortunately, of course, not so allergic to kill me though:-( I’m just allergic to mean that I have to deal with this agony of pain, every single day.

I have endured this for 25 years. (Lucky for me, I do not want and never will have children). There is no amount of money that can fix the excruciatingly painful condition I was born with. I want voluntary Euthanasia. I've endured 25 years of this. When is Enough, ENOUGH???? I'm allergic to pain relief, I slip disks out just walking and it takes MONTHS, not days, MONTHS to heal. MONTHS of Agony. And even then, I never fully “heal”, I can never HEAL. The down time I do get is short lived. I still can’t move suddenly as I get extreme sharp pain down my back and along my legs. It never fully heals. It’s just a waiting game of when will my next disk decide to break or split more and part of it slip out and hit a nerve? Then Agony? Then I have secondary injuries, like excruciating knee pain just as my back heals.

I had just fixed my back 2 months ago, as much as I could. My knees are still quite painful, but my back pain had, for the most part, stopped being so painful. Then today at work, I picked something up so carefully, but clearly wrong, and slipped one of my damn disks out. My knees aren’t yet healed, Now I'm bed ridden again. All my sick leave from all my 3 jobs are used up. I'm f%$#@d. How am I going to pay rent? How am I going to live? I'm useless to the world. PLEASE, I WANT IT TO END. I don’t want to live like this. I don't want to go on the dole, why should I be paid taxpayers money just because I'm a weakness of the species?? That is BS. What a waste of time/space/money. There are people out there with no/less than what I have/less debilitating health problems who can really make a difference in the world. Help them. Let people who are useless, die. Or at least make some world government to get rid of useless, irrelevant people who are nothing but a drain on society. Darwins theory. Only the strongest should survive. No wonder humans are such a weak and pathetic species. If it wasn't for wonderful (my arse) modern medicine, I would have rightfully died when I was younger. I WOULDN'T BE IN AGONY RIGHT NOW, COS I SHOULD HAVE DIED AS A CHILD, like nature intended. Modern medicine is nothing but a hindrance to strengthening our species. We are a weakened species as people are living too long, the sick maintain life and the weak are able to reproduce, making more weak species (like me). I should have never been born. My parents should have never been allowed to reproduce with their genetic problems that they passed to me. I didn't ask to be born. I wish I was given a choice. I sure as hell would have NEVER chosen this. This is not LIFE. :'( :'( AGONY IS NOT LIFE. I want Voluntary Euthanasia.

Please Help Me.