ok ok. I believe there is a lot of fun in the world. A lot of interest and whimsy. Perhaps with no real point except that it entertains us as humans. And then we find a source of happiness somewhere-say a holiday or a crush or a fun game or food- whatever. then we exploit it. and find another one. and exploit it. and it keeps happening like that.Maybe more than one at a time.
To be honest I can live with that. There is enough variation in the different kinds of happiness for my liking. But I'm not getting enough. That's where my problem lies.
My problem- well.
ok let's just start by saying that-yes I am another filthy acne riddled teen.I'm 14. You don't have to read this if you think my problem is stupid. Or my writing is boring. that's ok. if you want to leave, leave now.
now that that is sorted.
I'm ugly. It sounds harsh. you can say I'm not, but the truth is there. blindly obvious. I think I have PCOS, which is a disease but I'm not going to ask my parents to take me to the Dr's. no. never. Because a symptom of it is hirsutism which is..excess hair. Which I have. Which is vile. I admit it. And there is something very sad about being disgusted by your own appearance. And believe me I know what is normal and what is not. And as I said. I have acne. I have stuff for it. It doesn't work that well.I was never that attractive anyway.
so that's great huh?
Let me guess that you're either thinking...well she'll get over it, she's just a teenager it's some puberty thing.
Just go to the dr.
Or maybe...just maybe you're telling me to FIND GOD. well i'm an atheist and I'm not changing.
If you're not thinking that then my apologies for categorising you like that.
besides. you've probably given up reading by now.
the thing is this problem is really much more complicated then it seems.
Besides from THAT problem -yes are you sick of hearing my problems..?
I'm kinda lonely
and I'm sad. but you know what
i'm not going to give up and die.
even though it seems like a good option.
and I'm sure there's plenty of people on here who are sad.
and life sucks.
but i guess we just have to deal with it.