Hi I am 26 and have a daughter I am married... and I could really be the happiest person in the whole world. BUT no!!!! I feel Horrible, i really hate my life! I wouldn't be a life right now, IF I wouldn't of had my baby girl who keeps me from going on... No matter how depressed I feel. How worthless, how miserable I feel.
I see her and I still think there is a light... But for how long!
My husband is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much older than, when I married him I thought cool, I will be pampered! WRONG!!! he has been breaking every part of my being EVERY part of my soul, and his "Friends" just keep making my LIFE SOOO F*CKING miserable!! God! I hate them more than i hate myself! If I go to do groceries.. BEACAUSE SHOCKINGLY people do eat! and drink, and if I spend more than 150, they all ready called my Husband, and made this huge thing bout me spending money in the groceries..
Ok, if I go to the doctor! the same: why do u have to go to the DR??? I mean sorry I got sick, need medication?? Oh no U didn't!!!! well I need medication for the baby, need to call my husband assistant! and he of course decides if i can have extra money for the medication...
ok, i need underware cause mine are broken! oh no! u can't... Ok, let me think... i stay at home, then don't do anything... why are u at home all day do something at of ur life! OMG! ok I go out... guess what No gas on the car..... Now I'm stuck in the middle of the road with no gas a screaming baby, and no reception...
Ok, I am at home, fridge empty, no gas, no money baby screaming for food!!
I sold all my jewellery so i could do my thing, and now I am stuck in the same old same old!
And the only thing i can think of at least I shud be happy? well The only happiness I get is to tell my husband goodbye! but i can't my baby girl love him...
so I am in the same gold cage for the F*cking rest of this time!
Need a way out!!