LIFE SUCKS

It's probably best that you are away from family if they give you negative energy. If you worked hard in everything else, try working harder to make yourself happy becuase no other person is responsible for that. You need to enjoy life more, get outdoors, expeirence the world, observe people. treat yourself to a nice dinner, go to plays. Also try being in public places were a lot of people are. Where there is people, you should be able to socialize and form relationships(though it won't be easy but it's a start). Where there are no people, you can't expect any progress. I would try being apart of organizations and other clubs/groups

Learn to put yourself first and take care of yourself instead of waiting for all these people to come to you. And if you want, try talking to your family about what's going on in your life and how you feel becuase they can't guess how you feel, especially if they are so clouded with ignorance.

I think that you're looking at things from your own perspective, I mean you're literally saying that you are a saint and everyone around you is bad towards you. I gotta say that you need to ask the closest people to you how do they see you, not you see yourself. Sometimes I do things that seem ''right'' to me and to everyone but it ends up making people hate me and i dont get it until i listen to people and see it from their point of view. I mean with all that stress you are going through, you must have done things that fucked up your relationships with others whether you realize it or not. Don't lose your family for an ex, family is the only group of people on earth that will give a fuck whether you're happy or sad, dead or alive,... Reconsile with your friend and for fucks sake listen to them both, I know you have the best intentions in heart but the way you deliver your actions and opinions might be hurting people around you without you realizing it...
Your problem is making your life revolve around a dying ex who from the sound of it, looks like the guy who dumped you, cuz if you dumped him then you wouldn't probably care much... Your life should be about your family and friends and ofcourse yourself, cuz no one is this world will love you as much as them. Sorry i know i tend to repeat the same point over and over but I just see repitition as a way for emphasise my words.
Seriously take it easy, life is too short to be stressing on shit like that. Live your life cuz let's face it you are going to be dead sooner than later and with all that stress you're just cutting your life short and making it miserable.
Holy shit I'm starting to sound caring and supportive ..
WTF???

get a pet!!!! maybe you need someone to take care its give you the satisfaction to see how it growths and remember the pets always will be there when you needed

I feel the exact same way. I am also a 21 year old female and I just feel like im in a black hole with no light. I always work so so hard. I know whats right and whats wrong and I make decisions accordingly. I used to have a ton of friends and then about a year ago on my bday we had this huge falling out and I was left with just my bf and his friends. That worked out for about another year until we broke up on our 2 year anniversry which was also my sisters wedding because he was drunk and rude to all of my family and had to be asked to leave. I have absolutely no one anymore. I have one friend that I've had for about 10 years but I can't talk to her about anything because she has never had a boyfriend or anything and is very depressed. I don't feel like I can talk to anyone. Everyone in my family is getting married and planning for a family and I am just alone. My ex still trys to be there for me but I just get so mad at him because his life seems to be so perfect. Losing friends without a reason has happened a lot and my mom always said that I must have been meant to be in there life for that time to help them through something. But now I REALLY need someone to come into my life and help me through this and no one has. I have some friends now but they are all boys and they more or less are just being friends with me for a certain reason they hope they will get. I can't talk to them about anything and everything. And if I had a new boyfriend they would just leave. I need a real friend..

omg she need help

fuck you

I don't see anything wrong with you. Just accept the facts and do what you think it's right. Sooner or later you will be disappearred from this torture world as all others.

goldgrillin@gmail.com i can try .. :)

Hello Lone Angel,
I'm sorry for so many unhelpful people on this site. Especially the downright mean ones. You don't deserve that. I just want you to know that wherever you are tonight I am thinking about you with tears and hoping you can find some positive solutions to this mess. I can't claim to be able to fix it but I can care. Know that I do care.

How sad. Luckily, you're not alone. Misery is with you. enjoy your life, fat ass

don't listen to anyone but yourself , start with looking at the big picture then this 1 by 1 box . everyone cares about you remember that

Jesus loves you so much!