All my life all I’ve wanted was to be loved back as much as I have loved. I have only had that for a very short time. My father loved me unconditionally. I lost him and that love at 26. I thought I had it with Brian and then again with Troy. They only lasted in that stage for a very very short time. I’ve never felt I’ve had it with Frank at all. He’s a realist to the point of depression. I guess he is the most honest lover I’ve ever had though. At least he’s never promised that kind of love to me and then has taken it away. He’s just never given it to me from the start! LOL! I guess I’m learning from him that “this IS as good as it gets!” How depressing. I have all this love inside of me willing to share it with someone but there is no man who has the same thing inside of them to give it back. Most of them don’t turn down receiving it though!
A life without love isn’t worth having. What’s the point? Doesn’t that just seem like “existing” and not really living to these love dead people? I know thats how I feel, like a dog that is tied up in the back yard. The dog is feed, watered, has a little dog house to keep him dry when it rains but thats it! No interaction with the family, no one thinks to bring him in when it is really cold or hot outside, no one plays with him, no one cares if he needs some kind of “quality” of life. As if this animal has no emotion or feelings! Why bother having a dog? Hell, he’s just a living breathing piece of yard art at that point. Maybe that’s what I am and have been to all these men in my life, living yard art.
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sometimes you just have to think. Are you sure it's not just you? maybe they already are giving all the love they ever have for to you. but you just don't get it and expect too much. you need to know that it's not just them. And love don't go and find you, you need to put efforts into it. And at least one of your ex is honest with you!
A life without love is still a life. You don't need love to be happy, but you need to give love!
I honestly don't think you give enough, and you want to receive more than you gave. Honestly...
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