Fornlorn...maybe isn't the right word. I'm 21, female and never had a boyfriend and have only one friend who I rarely see. I feel tired, I feel lost and right now I just want to die because I'm fed up of crying and having no one to turn to when my family becomes too much for me, when I can't take looking after my grown relatives who don't even remember my name. They don't trust me, they don't know who I am or what I'm doing, but they want me to go away.
I spend my life in and out of hospital with them and when I do have time to myself...it is to myself, I have no one to spend it with and the loneliness is crushing me. I've become a recluse while I've been caring for them and now the idea of going to a pub to meet someone terrifies me.
I just...wish I could wipe it all clean and start again. | |
See you just met one of them now : ) Open yourself up a bit,put yourself out there.Friends are just strangers you havent introduced yourself to yet.
You can encounter Christ in a very powerful way, in the midst of feelings of isolation or loneliness. Looking at the crowds of people around you doesn't help, when you feel that no one truly cares for you.
The Psalmist cried out, "No man cares for my soul." [Psalm 142:4]. He was experiencing the loneliness of isolation from other people, and the feeling that those around him were pursuing their own interests rather than showing genuine concern for his soul.
People are often pursuing their own interests and desires, but the lesson we must learn is that people are not our source. In the midst of your isolation, you can turn to Christ and discover that His love truly does satisfy. Jesus understands loneliness and rejection. He experienced isolation from people. Because he understands, he is able to bring acceptance and love.
Christ brings you love, acceptance, and intimate communion with the God of love. With Christ, you are not alone. He conquers your loneliness by coming to dwell within you. Loneliness is removed by the presence of the indwelling Christ.
There is precious communion with Christ, when a lonely person discovers that the love of Christ is real and satisfying. There is an old saying, "Blessed are the homesick, for they shall come home." Loneliness and isolation are signs of homesickness, which can only be healed by coming home to Christ.
Christ makes us whole. His love makes us whole, and out of the overflow of Christ's love within us we can then show love and compassion for those around us. Out of the overflow of His love and acceptance for you, which heals your loneliness, you can show love and caring towards those around you.
He knocks at the door of your heart; the presence of Christ is real. But He must be invited into your heart, into the center of your being.
Receive Him; receive His cleansing and forgiveness and love. Allow Him to have the control of your life in a genuine surrender, and His loving presence will fill you, removing loneliness and unrest. May the peace of Christ fill you now!
A Prayer of Surrender:
Dear Lord Jesus, please fill me with your love, and wash away all my sins. I surrender my heart and life to you. I ask you to receive me and make me whole.
Thank you for dying on the cross for my sins, to cleanse me and forgive me. Thank you for dying on the cross for me, to make me a child of God. I turn away from all my sins, with all my heart.
I receive you, Lord Jesus, as the Lord and Savior of my life. I ask you to rule in my heart and life from now on. I ask you to fill me with your loving presence, and guard me with your divine protection.
I ask you to strengthen me and help me, to live for you from now on. I ask you to fill me with love so that I can love other people with a pure love. Fill me with love so that I can love you with all of my heart.
Amen.
It must be hard ,I have never experienced what you are going through
but kinda can relate , it dose show you have a beautiful heart,
Could you possibly seek help ,in my country we have people who help
with caring to give you time for your own life.
As a guy meeting a potential partner at a pub maybe not the best idear
especially if you are looking for a long term relationship and true love as it's usally just a pick up spot lol. Sorry .but a cold beer is nice.
I would suggest you do what you enjoy doing ,Bunji jumping , shark diving whatever,at least that way both of you have already something in common
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